Officially moved!!

I hereby announced that i have officially moved my blog to the address below:

www.musingbyning.wordpress.com

Cheers!~

~NinG~

Tiring work & more updates..

August is a very very busy month. I am so so so glad that its gg to be over soon. This week is the last week of August.. hopefully this will mark the end of my hectic working schedule... sept is gg to be relatively relaxing becos i got no rooms to sell since school term has started. Great! Doesnt sound too good for a sales person BUT hey no comm leh.... so nvm lah. Im sick & tired of the internal politics and uncooperative working attitudes of certain ppl anyway. SIghz .. wat to do.. still gotta work.. Basically i still like my job, just that alot of constraints and uncooperativeness from different areas making it hard to tolerate. But like i say sept is gg to be relatively quiet for me. Time to balance it out abit.

Enuf of work.. beside it being tiring and frustrating at times.. i guess there are still tons of complaints that i dun tink i wan to flood the whole of this entry. Hhhaahaha. Work will pass.. the torture will pass.. i juz have to endure...


Mummy & daddy juz came back fr Tw last week.. (i tink so.. or was it laz laz wk?) hmmm , anyway i wan to travel too!! I think my sis and her fat hubby is gg turkey end of this year too.. Why is everyone travelling without ME!!! *POUT* sianzzz...

Maybe i shld save up more.. was planning to go TW with ah ngai next year.. We muz upgrade from BKK to TW. My mum says i would have lotsa things to buy there.. Keke.... muz save up for a new lappy too.. my lappy is realllllyyyyy sllooowwww in looooaddingggg... It seems like it is gg to crash anytime anyday... despite the "n" time i have reformated it. hahaha CHUI alr lah.. seriously.


Now that i rem.. i din blog abt my bday! yaaa all the celebrations are posted in FB alr... so i guess it sum it up.. this year's theme is sweet, simple & cosy.. simply have small celebration with diff grp of frens. Nuttin fanciful but cosy!~ Love of my pressies.. from my coach small wallet from boo, to the Lancome makeup from rick & geri, dior limited edition brush set from val & the zhss gals, to ah ngai sweet "hamper-like" small gifts and the ang bao money the rest of the gals have given to the skirts and accessories from the office peeps. All gifts are greatly appreciated.. thank u very much once again the thoughtful pressies & well-wishes. =)

Some more updates, mainly crazily in love Ethan Ruan- (Ruan jing tian) becos of the show: Ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni (Fated to love you).. SHUAI!~ keke.. Anyway, i think blogger is getting very lousy! Is it becos of my lappy or wat? The whole page does not load properly... got alot of error messenge somemore. I am seriously comtemplating to change to wordpresss.. yes yes i am a late bloomer i know.. haha but im too lazy to learn the new application and adopt to new changes.. MAybe i shld really do it.. Grr..

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Boo's mum sent me this forwarded sms very long ago.. like last year? I think it's pretty meaningful so i kept it in my msg inbox till now.. Time to share this little msg..

A meaning messenge:

人在成长的过程中，难免遇到挫折
懂得保护自己也要懂得爱自己
生命的乐章看你自己如何去谱写
躲避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
得倒不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定最软弱
别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对与错
许多事情的答案都不只一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
你能找到理由难过
也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人找到自由懂得关怀的人找到朋友

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虽然有点难过有朋友没有记得我的生日不过我也明白每一个人在不同的人心里或生活里都有不同的位置和重要性。所以，我不可能是每个人的公主/好朋友或知己。。大家只要开心幸福就好。虽然不常联络不代表我不关心， 所以一定要幸福哦！
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Happy Advanced Birthday to my dearest Bro kevin, Charbor Cindy &　Her bf　＃!＃~

After so many years, the scars are still there

It is pretty amazing that some "scars" will always stay..even after so long... Tt's my "not very dark secrets" but not alot of ppl know is that i hated my sec sch days.. Though i do have wonderful girlfrens (Yes i do, juz tt i dun hang out with them THAT often) fr sec sch till now, i seriously dun have nice memories of those long forgotten days. It's also probably the only time that i hang out and talk to most of the girls in a gathering than to the guys.. hahahaha. I used to be UGLY.. and i seriously meant FUGLY in fact. Pimples, glasses, braces.. yes i had them all. I was always tease, always bullied and we cant blame guys at that age becos they are well... CHILDISH. hahahah but you expect them to grow up after all these years.. and POOF! 10 years passed. And did they changed? I guess some did, and some din...

I was never in the "top catergory" in zhss, im not pretty (although i got pretty gfs and in the popular clique), im not rich(and i actually thinks that my family is above average alr compare to ppl i noe), im not smart (mind you most of them went to JCs then local uni or private ones). Im just OUT of range. BUt hey i can get into a JC, im muz clarify.. i juz din bother to apply cos i noe it doesnt suit me. And i am a deg grad now, aint i? So most ppl want to make it big, the ppl i noe fr zhss are idealist i supposed. Make lotsa money, drive big cars, own country club memberships, got pretty gfs.. the likes of life. Cool.. if you got the ability. but i belive we shall all work within our means, and not belittle others who probably like myself cant make it big, but we work hard for our living. Anything wrong with that? I am so surprise when Bren asked me laz nite why i am doing "sai kang" in SMU..and wat's my pay like. My pay is in fact no secret to many many of my frens. But i feel like im earning so little and the inferior complexity seap in and i kept my mouth shut.

Anyway, its supposed to be confidential im not obliged to say anything! BUt it's his tone lah. bloody hell. Like i say, all these years, even when there are times i feel that my life is perfect- i got a loving family, a wonderful bf of 6 yrs, frens tat love me for who i am, a job (which means i got stable income) and WHY the hell does the inferior feeling seaped in so deeep within me whenever i see them. Its like a scar that can never be remove..never. Even when im pretty sure i look MUCH better (with contact lens, straighten teeth and blemish free complexion),i dun expect and wan them to say im prettier than before. i guess i wan respect. respect for who i am. Its wierd, they are the only ppl and with such gatherings are the only times i feel so unloved. PPl always tell me how lucky i am, everyone i go, ppl dotes on me and love me for who i really am. My poly frens, uni frens, ex colleagues....I wont say im a wonderful person, but i am a great fren to many.

I just want to say, i wanna stay proud of myself, no matter if im not as smart, as rich, as pretty. But i do have smarter, richer, prettier, more handsome frens in my social circle that surpassed them and it makes me feel good. Hhahaha!!! i thank all the other ppl in my life that makes me feel more worthwhile, there r so many of u.. u noe who u r, although the scars are still there after a decade.. Thank u. =)

一本书的魅力

一边读着，泪水也一边在自流。我一直都觉得文字是很奇妙的东西，它能不直觉的让人感受到平时不会经常感受到的情绪。眼泪流了，心痛了。就这样一本爱情小说昨晚让我狠狠的哭了。不知道为什么就因为太感动了吧。现实生活中哪来的刻苦铭心? Anyway, its very hard to summarise the storyline plus most ppl will think that its too absurd。 就是那种爱的很凄美却很伟大的爱-小说中的爱情。也不懂为什么会哭得那么汹， 就觉得故事里的主角为爱所做的真的是太感人了。超越了生死。总之就是很touching就对了。

有人趁说过我不懂得去爱，只懂得自私的接受人家给的爱。我并没有否认。
也有人说过不管你在外头闹最想念也最终回到的那个怀抱是你心底最爱的。
最该爱那个最懂你的那一个才是幸福的。累了那熟悉的气息是最温暖的，对吧?

不自觉的想太多了。我祝你幸福，所以一定要幸福哦！

Y do i feel that it's diff now...?

There is a change of lifestyle.. i do not know why... im home more often.. ehhh where are my frens man???? Im bored more easily... and all this cause me to be a sticky gf...WHICH i muz emphasize I AM NOT abit like tat before..AND i dun like it one bit to be a sticky gf... Wonder wat is wrong with me too... im not unhappy with life. i am juz BORED.... and life seems stagnant.. i hate this word "stagnant".

And boo now is into this insurance thingy.. i hope he is gg to do well for it, for the good of his future (and ours). But of cos i nv pressurise him.. though i alway say i wan to be a tai tai. BUt more imptly, i think to live comfortably is enuf.. not necessarily tai tai lah... We do have some differing views abt certain issues, which of cos i dun see it as quarrels.. we merely disagree. But of cos i am still one of his top priority, hee...but i seriously tink he needs to shower me with more attention.. (though im refraining to be sticky). Hey i used to love my freedom! girlfrens... pls ask me out. or stop me fr nuaing at home.

We shall see how long this phase last then.. Grrrrr....

some clients are nice..while some are NOT....

On MC today... cos im too tired... having a tension headache. Actually it wasnt anything serious.. juz too tired becos have been working last sat and sun. This client has been very demanding and really tires me out with all her demands.. damn... it makes me want to cry whenever i hear my handphone rings.. While some clients are really troublesome, some are really nice... The nice one makes you feel appreciated, and the demanding makes you feel that you are really being bullied!

Sighzz.. i dun like to be "Janis".... that is the working jian ning... with surpressed emotions.. I want to be Ning... the princesss that is doted by everyone. But of cos i noe i have to grow up. hahahaa. Just met up with Yiwen juz now for his dinner. He was asking if i think he changed after working. I dun really think so. But at least he is concern with whether he has changed to another person aft he started working. I think alot of times, we changed and nobody dare to tell us.. Esp after we started working and going thru another stage in life. And most of the time we wont know if we had changed.. So i asked him if i had changed? He said that i have become quieter compared to last time.

Becos of work i think i have slightly grown up alittle hahahha.. more serious, more professional. Maybe not as vibrant as before.. 老了吧。。。Sometimes miss being alittle crazy...

Anyway, tml has to go back to work already. Time to buck up again... Where shall i find my motivation?

Random updates...

Haven blog for ages. Had a great BKK shoppping trip with Yanting & Yuling.. YEAH! The whole itinery only consists of shopping and eating, & more & more shopping.... very tiring but fun at the same time. I was totally broke earlier this month becos of the trip. Gotten myself lotsa new clothes! Weet!~

Work has been busy, i guess it is a good thing. Sales figures are going upwards... good sign but i hope i can maintain it. Politics have been the usual... sometime i find it terribly irritating. I try to stay neutral although both side are treating me v well. Too good to me in fact. I rather they dun, seriously. I can tolerate the bitching but just dun pull me in. I juz wan to do my work and get things done ya. The big difference abt "HERE" (my current work place) and all the previous companies i worked before is apparently i am not exactly forging a very close relationship with them. Dun click lah. Talking abt close relationship, i met up with my Rochester groupies last week for Japanese steamboat as it is also Yew Meng's farewell.. He is gg to work in China with his darling. Miss their fun & laughters and gotten some updates abt how the company has been for the past mths.

Had KTV session with jess & kevin las wk too and lyly join us after the session for some chill out tea time... Planning for steamboat + mahjong session with yt,yl,ch and lyly. Besides all these, life has been pretty boring... haven been drinking for some time as i was seriously broke aft the bkk trip. Dont really feel like drinking anyway. Sorry Melson! I have been "missing" for awhile. hahah. Juz feel pretty bored. i dun really feel like gg out either. Boo is studying for his exams so not much time for me too. I am so bored that i keep calling him until i am oso starting to find myself a nuisance. I am never the sticky kind as you all know. BUt i cant help it. im juz bored lah. and i dun want to spend $$ & go out. hahah. Basically nuttin interest me much, and keep my attention for long. So you noe what he did? He bring over the series of fast & furious (Part 1-3) DVDs to my hse so that i can keep myself occupied. hahahah he noes im so crazy over vin diesel and paul walker lah. As always, my love for bad boys with a good heart.

I will probably get myself more occupied once i go register and get myself a booth at the SAM (spore art museum) flea mkt. It is more of occuping time and being "productive" with my accessories parts & bits than really making money from the flea. Well, of cos i hope to earn some bucks from there. But it is mainly to clear stock seriously.

Will keep everyone updated if i manage to get a booth so can come and support me & yanting!

BORED....