Im GuilTy....of.....

Im guilty of the following.. I can tell you..is gonna ba a long list...hahahhaz

IM GUILTY OF:

1. relying on my bf TOO Much! He is my punchbag, my mobile pillow, my helping hand,my Counselor. (thanks dearie for always being there for mi to scream at!)
2. screaming at everyone when im pissed
3. neglecting all my CLOSEST Frens! ( sorry cindy, ting, xw, Val, ness, yin,lydia..)
4. being a spoilt brat
5. doing ALMOST everything with the help of others
6. sniffing my "bao bao" every few minutes when im at home
7. being too too whiny all the time
8. being so gan cheong abt everything
9. relying on kev alot too.. ( sorry bro! n thanks for all the help n support!)
10. having a breakdown when things juz go WrONg.. way WrONg...
11. fearing to disappoint anyone's expectation of mi
12. being inferior all the time
13. taking pictures of myself using other ppl's hp
14. laughing all the time like a nutcase
15. gossiping! hahahahz

All these are true facts.. Maybe is the weather.. feeling emotional.. Maybe im juz tired.... Too stressed out.. Oh well, is juz me...

Im so StReSseD.. I Juz WanNa Cry...

I have been camping in school for like the past 2 weeks.. coughing, sneezing, typing, laughing... Den it goes back to typing and tinking and more thinking and still not very productive.. Im such a worrier.. Im scared... What if i screwed up the whole presentation tt the grp had put so much effort in? Im being pessimistic i noe.. I feel so useless. Doing slides and refining them , nuttin constructive. Waiting for ppl to give mi fresh info so tt i can put in the slides..hai.. N what makes it worse? Cmp sux too.. hai..dunno how to do the report. Arrghhh.. n i flunked my sm quiz too.

What makes a worst day for mi? Tt should be all abt it.. But still.. I wanna cry.. so worried. so scare i screw up everything... ARghhh... hai.. Tink i giving myself too much pressure. So not myself.. But tis time is an integrated presentation.. 4 modules tgt! I need a break! I wanna score well..

Oh well, i tink im juz crazy for this few weeks. Will be back to my normal self once this presentation ends!

* sorry gals! I have no time for u all recently! will find time to meet up wif u all k! (not inclusive of the time in canteen 1 & IS!) Miss Dar too. He too is So stressed! Muacks.. Yuan Qi for everybody!

TiReD.. dRaIneD.. (SkOoL) ~PresuRiSed... StReSseD...(WoRk)

I am happy one min.. upset the next.. Im not happy always.. Happy tt the class is getting along fine. Celebrating birthdays n taking pictures are so fun! Some class bonding activities... But school is not only tt.. sch includes proj! I had nv ever pia so much for a proj before. SO u noe how impt it is to mi. But i seriously want to do a gd job n scoring a A is like a goal for mi. Tis CEO cant be so lousy rite? hahahz.. Library is now my 2nd home.. finding cosy corners or rooms to get down to work without laughing too much or falling asleep.. It is a real task.. hahahz.. Not to do all those..

I dun want to work! How can ppl expect so much from us becos we r introduced by someone tt is such a good performer? Actually ppl always do make this assumption. But i cant work under such stressful environment, i juz perform even worse instead of better. ARGHH.. I admit we r too noisy.. IM ALWAYS NOISY>> if not im damn sad already lor. My GOaLs now are do a excellent intergrated presentation and to improve on work attitude! Umimportant compared to the above is to make my "growing" tummy to become smaller.. IM FAT>>!!!! Such An DiStUrBinG fact.. arhh...

I juz WaNna Slp.. But Life still go on even when you r slping.. be yourself.. be a "better" yourself everyday... I am Me... I am NOT Me.. Im TiReD.. But My MinD is Still RuNnInG.... Out Of BreaTh yet im still Gg oN...

SupeR HiGh on PRaTa... hahahaz

Yeah..!!! My lappy has gone to level 5 again today.. But is all well n okay now!!! Yeah!!! hahhahz pretty tired cos has been working for the weekend. Is super fun on sat when there's leon, nolan n lionel wif mi crapping for the entire sat while working. It makes working much more entertaining! hahahhaz.. Sunday was okay.. Saw Yvonne! n her bf.. n C n her bf.. ( like alot of ppl hor) den oso leon brought his cute hammies over too!

Today is slack day.. doing proj in the aftnoon.. den went to eat prata at jalan kayu( lionel's idea) wif lionel,kim,kev n dear. Pretty fun cos we r crapping or shld i say kevin is getting high on prata?! hahahaz Saying all the super lame stuffs abt gg hm on a cab! hahahhahaz... But really eat until Bao Bao le.. *scatch tummy*.. {Garfield's action!}

hahhaz tml gg for 5 items n 2.4km run.. die le lah.. can u imagine garfield running??? hahahhz garfield can roll... hahahhahaaz.. Oh well., let's juz hope tt my tummy wont get in the way when i do my sit-ups ya?! hahahhahaz *pout*

Im Back!!! Lappy has recover!

Hi everyone im back!!! So happy to be able to blog again. Tis wk was fun! With 1 MRsh test tt im gg to fail n i actually lost my text aft the test. Big thank you to Jonas Lee who found my text! Heez.. Sm quiz was quite alrite.. wont fail.. N so happy for my Marcom pair work mi n xr get 80!!! I told u we r smart! hahahahhz N of cos my IBS sales call 2 get A-!!! Yeah!!!! So tis wk im pretty 'high' u see.. I juz cant stop laughing n making stupid cold comments. Juz ask Lionel,Kenny,Kev n XR. I tink we r all gg to mad soon doing proj tgt!! N like today, even the bf/gf joined in! So we r like having a big party while doing proj. FUN!

Hmmm.. Have i updated on laz few wks events? Probably too bz to do so... Not much of stuffs though.. Went to work for COmex n fell sick for 3 days.Fever! Blood test.. fear of dengue! Aft tt was bz doing EM.. in the end redo.. den bz again to redo it! Let mi tink wat else? Ya.. i went to work for CTMA for IFA! Is like a reunion.... so glad to see boyboy, don don, n working wif lyly at the reg counter, gg 2nd level to look for jess, calling xuan 'ah bu',joking wif yan,etc etc.... I actually miss the on-site feeling. Hhahahahz.. Feeling like an experienced staff as i teach the grp of newcomers whom r all boy's frens. N of cos staying at Marina Mandarin hotel for the nite. Hhahahz i still prefer Conrad though but better than nuttin lah. hahahhz

$$$$ needs more of them.. tt's y go work rite.. Rdshow im coming.. Tis wkend at compass pt! Hmm n of cos ... more proj.. Gotta be bz bz bz until no time to meet dar dar already!!! He oso bz wif his own projs! POUT!!! sniff... GAGA!!!!

Laptop need to reformat!

Hai...Sorry ppl if u all are waiting for my blog entry..Cos i wont be blogging for quite some time.. Laptop is down.. needs to reformat..wont be able to go online until i get it repaired.,.. Den oso dunno y i cant type anything in blogspot..(im using my sis's laptop rite now). Yanting got the same prob as mi.. I tink is my laptop lah. Probably got virus or something like tt... Hmmm.. anyway integrated presentation coming so im gonna be very bz doing proj.. No time to Blog!

So for the mean time... Take care ppl! cYA IN Sch!