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Friday, August 31, 2007

闲人的第一天 *depressed*

说我是劳碌命也好,泛贱也好,我做闲人的第一天可真是让我难受得很!!昨天也算是在公司*Unofficially*的最后一天 因为intern 来了,老爸也一直摧我用心的把最后一个学期念完。不过如果有需要我的帮忙时,我还是会回去的。老实说,我今天可过的很辛苦!!在家好闷哦!读课本,我读了许久还是没吸收到东西。*sighz* 读不进,头就开始痛,所以整个下午就在睡梦中度过。好可悲!!我也真受不了自己,不过也没辙呀。

我觉得我好像封闭了自己在我房这四面墙里。不太想约人出门,或者想约的人都忙得没空理会我。所以,结果就是谁都不想见了。以前做工让我觉得很充实,现在做闲人我可是无聊的很。太多时间在手中不知怎样的好好利用它。感到很悲,也没特别的原因。没心情,也没力气。闷。头也常常会疼痛。觉得身边的人越来越稀少,渐渐的少见面也慢慢的不了解不常联络。很悲,很想把自己藏起来,沉浸在那深蓝色的调调里。

不要常常以为很了解我,因为有时我更不了解自己。不要以为我每天都很快乐,我快乐的原因是身边的人带来的。

简单的说,我现在很EMO。

那天跟yanting去了一趟书局看到一本杂志刚好就谈到了人们对EMO的见解。。。

EMO对我来说就是:

心情低潮的时侯。很emotional的时侯。悲哀不开心,设么都不想做的时侯。没胃口。心痛与感动交叉的那刹那。想把自己封闭起来。脱离这现实社会。听着忧伤请歌。想到KTV唱着那些歌曲让回忆乱跑让现实暂时远离让梦想短暂实现在思绪里。

希望明天会更好。展开我闲人的开始。

Thursday, August 30, 2007

以前,现在,以后

人就是不知足,太多时间的时侯就觉得太闲着很无趣。
太少时间又会觉得生活太过忙碌到喘不过气。
拥有在手中的时间怎样才能最好的利用它呢?
我似乎没有答案。

时间可以分成以前,现在和未来。
以前饱含了有一些想捡回来的记忆。有甜蜜的,有悲伤的,有难忘的。
有一些地方随着岁月的变化也跟着变了,回忆也渐渐的被遗忘。
有时反它出来时,画面又清晰可见。
现在,是往往不相面对现实又不知道自己以后的路该怎样走。
以后,是见证自己达不达成所希望的成果。

~想念着以前的一些,对现在的矛盾,向往以后的未来。
参杂着甜蜜的思绪与苦涩的悲哀。~


*我告诉你一个秘密哦,我。。。我。。。。又再一次。。。恋上。。。周杰伦了。。 *

Sunday, August 26, 2007

headache.tired.bringmeouttoplay.

i.dunnowhyit.turnsouttisway.butimtootired.tonoeanway.
takeitorleaveitiswattheysay.doithavetoturnouttisway.
wehaveourlivestolead.sobusyineveryway.
sacrificesandcommittment.isapackagettnvgivesway.
onedayumewethey.willgoourseparateways.
sonowwepray.forthebetterortheworst.wepray.

Has been rushing projects this wk for MC. Mentally draining and physically tiring.Luckily friday aft grp discussion, i got the chance to go for a short shopping trip wif my mummy and went to the jewellery fair wif my her and my sis and future bro-in-law before a dinner treat fr my sis. And my day hasnt end yet, i went on to meet my boo & his bros- eug they all to chill out.

A long day but tat was the only day i enjoy the whole wk. Entire wk doing proj, only one day to for me to meet ppl and relax. Next wk will be better, im sure!
Im having a terrible sore throat & a bad headache. Haiz...
i cant help feeling tt my life is getting more and boring each day, juz work,sch, meet a few frens. But sometimes im juz too tired to go out. too many ppl to meet. too digusted by my own drunk look aft parties and too broke to do all the things i wish i could do. So now i lead a boring life.















me and my gals celebrating ky's bday @ amk hub (14 aug 2007)



Cineleisure KBOX (19 Aug 2007)

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

More Randomness

Having a terrible headache now. Grrr so i decided to blog.
Headaches. Assignments. Due dates.
Long time frens. neglected. guilty.
Not so close frens. drifting apart. guilty.
New fren. Closing up. guilty.
Fren + Fren + new fren= More Frens
High tea. Tai tai. yummy.
Lunches. dinners. bdays celebrations.
Spoilt. Pampered. dotes on.
Too tired. too busy. care too much.
Tired. Sleepy. Dream.
Dream of me. you. who.