Who r u, thinker?

U may juz be a passerby... Or u might be a fren whom i noe.. But im really curious, Who r u Thinker? R u my boo? or r u someone i noe? In fact u remind me of a fren i noe, but he says it wasnt him. Anyway, thks for the feedback. I guess i always noe wat the problem was but i tot we have attain a certain understanding of the issue alr. So its my bad.. my inconsideration and my careless words. Just a note to make, ppl who treat me include females too, diane, candida, audrey, aunty pat, geri... ANd i nv request tt from any of them.

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我真的觉得很纳闷，虽然我很在意这个朋友的意见而且那是因为他一向来很直接-very honest & direct in his replies.　可是每次跟他谈完话后，心情还真的是很纳闷。and the conversation will be left hanging in the air. Grrr.. 总觉得没有wrap up the whole conversation nicely and give it a conclusion or ending. 我很少跟他谈话，而总是谈完都有一样的结论－就是很“不欢而散”的感觉。I wonder sometimes, why is that so??? Is it me or you??

Issuessss...

Issuessssssssss..............................

1. Did I compare??

Maybe unknowingly i did, but i definitely dont mean it that way that he tinks..I have never look down on him or thinks that he is not good enough whatsoever.. He has been good.. in fact very very good for the past 5 yrs? So why does it crumple at the topic of money. And geri was just toking about $$ in one of her previous entry. Ok, let's not digress. Live within my means has always been the teaching in my family. I dont expect anyone to give me fantastic treats or presents or anything to prove that they r well capable of doing so. I like treats, but that doesnt mean i expect it from everyone. ANd i dont compare! Even if i did so unknowingly, it doesnt mean that i expect him to be like the rest. Cos we are all different!!! My apologises if my careless words have once again hurt.. But i really dont mean that other ppl are better just because they r financially more stable. It has nuttin to do with $$. Its the heart that counts. I tot he shld have known aft so many yrs. (maybe its a curse, i shldnt have wore back that ring. grrr).

2. Cosy like a 2nd home..

I think im wierd.... After i left a place and move on to a new place, i tend to go back to the old place and it feels like home.. For eg, when i was in Adecco, i was so determined to find a job elsewhere and when i finally work in Rochester, i went back to Adecco whenever i need to whine. And whenever there is a bday celebration i will be there. Now that i have moved on to SMU, im missing the peeps in Rochester and it feels like home when im back there even though i was so determined to leave the place previously. I hope i dont give ppl the wrong impression that i dont like rochester. Becos i have realised that in many cases i always complain and whine and ppl tend to think that im really not happy there. Well, that is only becos of 1 stupid incident, let me clarify that is. I left becos i wanted something different, and i realised HR isnt the thing for me. I stil love many of the ppl in Rochester. I am a princess there!! hahaha yup, it feels good that they r so nice to me.. I had so much fun on thurs nite and i still feel like part of the family.. thks Justin, Candida, Diane, Audrey & the rest of the staffs. Love them. Im still learning & adapting to my new environment, shldnt be much of a problem. Very corporate, very different fr Adecco & Roc.

3. I dont like to feel forgotten.

So many years, i have been feeling inferior. and the feeling dont go away. It probably nv will. Maybe the problem lies with me, i really do not know. Maybe im just being sensitive and petty becos with them, im NeveR ME. Becos i am Diff, i dont click in and for the past yearssssss i have been trying to fit in with my indifferences. Sometimes, im tired. Tired of being there and though not comfortable at all. im pissed becos i feel forgotten.. Why must they always make arrangements the last minute??? Why am i always not being informed?? Why cant they bothered to send an sms to see if im available instead of assuming that if im not free during a certain timing i wont be free the entire time??? Just gotta ASK! No sincerity at all, and i bet they dont bothered. But to be fair, i am guilty of not showing my concern for them also. I think i cared for my other frens more. But well, they nv open up to me either, humans are really amazing, they know when they should return the favour or reciprocate the feelings. Our lifestyles dont fit, the people i noe differ so much from who they meet. They nv understand my kind of world and likewise i can nv understand theirs. Im sorry i sounded so grouchy, but its just that i wanted to make some of my tots known.

Gosh im tired....

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The Roc peepss...

I miss being young...Camp Rock! CooL!~

Do you know why i love watching movies or dramas? Becos they suck you in and allow you to dream & imagine yourself as one of the character in the show. You get in the mood and the rhythm and most importantly you feel good, oh and did i mention that the lead actor Joe Jonas is pretty cute too. hahahah but he's only 18 lah.. hahah i dont dig young boys but being an eye candy is not bad. Well most shows lah i mean judging from the fact that i dont watch horror and not much thrillers. So now im trying to promote CAMP ROCK! hahah okay its another kind of High School Musical type of in house movie done by Disney. But hey, its all about singing & dancing & dreaming.... After watching, i miss being young.. being young & innocent with big dreams.. miss thinking the world outside is a beautiful place. Miss not caring a thing in the world. hahhaa anyway video on Camp Rock.




When we are young, we hope to grow up faster and feel the world. When we are getting older, we miss the times when we are young & do not have a care in the world. =)

End of 1st...starting of the 2nd wk...

My 1st week is still alright.. alot of learning to do.. alot of walking around! But generally im adapting quite well to the environment there. Starting to answer enquries on my own, doing viewing on my own...etccc.. But is fun to walk around the different schools and showing people the facilities. Cool.. I am excited that im learning more and i get to do my own sales already. Though no comm but it still feels good to be able to close the deals. The only thing is that Fri is the busiest day of the week, cos we gotta do the logistic arrangements & Signages for the following week which means in the future if i cant finish i will have to stay back late or i have to come back on sat. hmmm. yup that's the only *negative -ve* thing i found. The rest are generally quite good. My team is pretty small and all older than me so once again i am the "girl girl" there. Hee =). Colleagues and managers there are all very helpful and nice. So yup im glad to be there! Feeling more Motivated for my future during bad times like this.

Hmm anyway updates for last wk was my boo's bday on the 6th- celebrated with him and his sister and cousin. And fri drinking session with "uncle justin" & "mr tan-stanley" before going down to "Phuture" to meet the girls (jess,lyly,dion & cindy) plus Liangjie for the long awaited clubbing session. But maybe becos im getting old already i din really enjoyed myself. We used to have so much fun. Too old to club! hahah i tink i really prefer chilling out somewhere or singing and drinking @ a ktv pub. Shit. im feeling so "chao lao".. hahahhaa

My last day @ OR...

So fast 8 months have passed... and yesterday was my last day in OR. There are alot of memories.. though sometimes there are frustrating one but many of them are happy ones... Like all those related to food & Gossips! wahahah i will definitely miss many of them. I have grown close to many of the staffs there and became great frens with some of them too.

I will miss Aunty pat calling me and buying me lunch & tea breaks.. i will miss Justin disturbing me in the office yet sending me to work, home and to 126 whenever i need it. i will miss diane and her wine tasting session, along with candida, the 3 of us will have our mini gossip session..hahahah. i will miss audrey and adeline my lovely french ladies & our macdonald's breakfast! i will miss both MR TAN- jeffrey & stanley who always joke around with me.. I will miss Chef Reif for calling me darling hahah. I am so touched by aunty pat's gift (cost quite abit i would say), she really my godma sia.. sobsob.. and of cos Debbi the bearbear that justin give me, the mousy wrist rest from Reif and the wonderful buffet that is diane & candida's treat. THe princess feel so loved!~ Hope ever after i left nobody can replace me as "the princess of OR". Wahaha i am so bad man.. okok..

But of cos i am also happy that i am moving forward doing something that i like and suits me more. I promised to visit OR often and also to help my new HR girl whenever needed so in fact im gg back to OR next wk lorrrr.hahahha!~

Anyway im sooo excited about my new job! Im gg to be back in town!~!~ city hall city hall, SMU SMU...here i come!~