I need anti-depressants...

Life is a mess suddenly.. Being at home is a suffering....It wasnt like tat laz time.. I hope it will juz go away in a few days. I cant stand it anymore.. Why is everything my fault? I din complain? I din do anything wrong.. erm..maybe i did but i din noe.. I mean i noe they are all in a bad mood. But tat doesnt mean tat i haf to do everything to please them. They juz assume i haf to be gd i haf to do tis i haf to do tat. But i haf always been gd. Haf anyone see tat? Im always the spendthrift, the useless, the slacker, the lazy bum. Wat the heck? I noe times r diff now but i din really complain. If u dun scream at me or tok to mi in tat tone i'll accept everything u say. Im will be so accomodating lor.. I only haf my rm as a comfort zone now. My bao bao is a console. Hurr...Where r all the warmth? Or am i really acting as a spoilt brat at tis kind of time. A wrong time actually.. Watever. I dun feel gd when ppl treat mi tat way anyway. Talk to mi nicely n i'll listen. I promise. I hope it will go away. N be back like laz time where hm is where i can rely on. Tat is wat i call hm.

Anyway, i haf been watching tis show call ... Very hot in taiwan one leh. No money to buy vcd so i get Dar to go rent it for mi. Very nice show. I juz love romance. Those heart warming, tear tear jerker kind.. Making ur heart fly and fuzzy wif all tears in your eyes. You juz want him to look at u tat way to love u tat way. Hhahaz dun scold mi.. i noe im attached. But all gals shld haf the right to day dream and fantasize k. Xmas is cuming.. it's a festive for love. I pray... erm.. i kinda got lotsa wishes for santa claus tis yr. Simply said.. i juz wish tat life would be better.. for myself,for the whole family, for my dar and all my frens..