IM a BaD GaL!!! hurr.. temper getting worse..oh man..

I tink im such a lousy person recently.. I din i really cant work. I feel like laz time attachment like tt. So stressed up.. im like complaining to dear everyday.. tink i really neglected him. He so bz wif his projs too. So we juz meet for a while (like 10 mins???) hurr. N i juz tok abt my life.. nt really concerning abt his.. hurr.. im such a bad gf. HaI.. oh man! im so self centered! im like beginning to hate myself. like wat twinnie always say i having my SWINGS again.. full blast. Oh wel, he got his swings too!! humpz.

Feeling bad. FOR: screaming @ ppl, feeling poor, feeling inferior, having pressure on myself n others, being too self centered, always depressed, feeling things will always go wrong.. oh man.
I haf to say thank u siew for helping me store the cable modem @ the office, sorry caihong u always haf to hear me scream n swear, kenny too.. tink he hear me swear like ever so often. hurr.. kev too.. for all my yelling n whining n complaining..

I tink im getting worse.. Im like swearing n cursing so much.. my goodness.. so ah lian! dunno y. i juz seem to swear when im pissed! hurr. save me... N ppl seem to be amuse by my actions., ( did i mention it in the laz entry?) Maybe its juz other ppl who dont see me acting crazy everyday. There is like so many sides of me.. the guai-goody gal,the responsible n "bao ga liao" ceo, the crazy cherry happy gal, the hot temper easily frustrated/pissed me, the vulgar n pissed me, the cute gf, n sumtimes.. i dun even wat's me anymore. Getting scary. Sometimes i haf so many emotions rushing over me.. so many diff sides of me tat appears in a single day. I hate it when im pissed... but it appears far too often in my life.. hurr.. im getting evil.hai.. evil innocence. juz seem to like tis 2 words.. contradiction.. I love.. contradiction. cos im one..