Im BACK to the rdshow team!!

Yippeee.. Gd news gd news.. Im back to the rdshow team!! Ok lah, i kao guan xi one hahaz. but the impt part is at least i got myself a job back! Im so damn broke lor so is like a blessing before cny! keke.. Work today was slack. Harbour Front..got so little customer.. hahahz slack all the way. Let me got the chance to brush up on my consumer sales anyway. hahaz. Feels like laz time. *wat a gd feeling* grinz. Next thing on my mind beside working is to try to start on my individual reports.. dun wanna fail any of the modules... hai..

Anyway, my hse is like a warzone lately.. My mummy having "severe" ( okay i might be exaggerating abit) menopause and stress from the family stuffs.. hai.... She used to be so patient and nice tempered.. now she get irritated by every little thing my goodness. Gotta be a gd gal recently. Lucky i got a job now or else staying at home could be even more "dangerous" than staying outside.. duh..

Gotta go read my notes awhile before gg to slp.. Working tml! Ciao~

Does the definition of love changes as we grow?

Was reading a few of my fren's blogs.. hahahz yes... i always got something to comment on.. isnt tt wat a blog is for? For ppl to read and for us to give our little comments or views? Okay.. nevamind me.. hahahz juz some of my tots anyway.. so same rules... not interested in my philosophies den click tis pg off!

Love.. why does love feels diff when we r younger..when everything is so sweet and simple... Sometimes i hate growing up. Growing up makes u see too much of the big picture.. see too much of the tis realistic world, make you think of consequences and causes and so many other things. Why??? Why cant love be simple anymore? And it doesnt hurt so much last time.. At 16, love is to be daring.. show it all.. love is everyting attitude. When u get older, u mellow..love means alot of other things. N we nv get enuf of our own personal wants..

NOw tt we grow up.. i guess we learn to love in another way.. a more complicated way that dunno y... hurts more when the dreams are shattered. Y doesnt it hurt so much last time?
And as we grow... we need to choose.. How come last time like no need to choose one ar? hahahz.. Life is full of choices now.. N sometimes u make decisions based on certain factors... well, and some factors juz seems to stand out and defeat other reasonings. So ultimately, still gotta make a decision that makes everyone happy. N ppl grow to be less naive.. Maybe becos we start to see tis realistic world.. n we r less innocent now.. Maybe becos of the things we experienced in life, we see things differently now.. It's harder to understand ppl nowadays. Layers and layers of masks or some ppl r juz unsure of many things.

But if u were to ask me to go back to the days when im 16, i tink i would not want to.. cos if so, i wont have a chance to meet some of the ppl i meet now. Isnt love and friendships a wonderful thing even though at times they might not be perfect like we want it to be?

Meeting peeps...

Tues: 17 Jan 05

Went OUB centre find meiyi for lunch since Im gg to the Recruit Exp at Battery Rd ...looking for a temp job. bleahx. so broke now.. Thks meiyi for the lunch! mum mum at golden shoe. Aft interview at Recruit Exp, went to meet up wif dearest Kevin.. Misses him so much....!!!
Seems like everyone haven buy their new yr clothes, so my job again is to accompany him to get new yr clothes.. hahahhz. So happy to see him.. 1 mth nv see him liao.. hug hug kor kor. So nice toking to him abt stuffs. hey he still noes me BEZ.. hahahhaz juz love the " i dun need to complete the sentence yet he noes wat i meant" kind of chemistry tt we have! Miss having u ard darling. hahaz . Aft tt, went to say "HIs!!" at PS hub outlet to find all my darlings..heez heez. Aft tt, went to find my sugar pop n yiwen, watched them play billard as usual den to their fav noodle store den to Hotel Rendevous's Coffee Club to chill out. Misses chong chong too. since i juz met sugar pop tt day for dinner and a drink at Harry's. keke.. chong so ke ai, so conservative.. dun even wan to give me a hug.. my sugar pop better. keke.. Den it was HOME SWEET HOME!

Wed: 18 Jan

Accompany Val to shop for her new yr clothes.... Den went to NUS to find lydia and kaiyin.. ooo we saw youde on our way to NUS. Happy happy.. cos kaiyin's drive to sch today!!!! Tt would only mean i'll get a free ride home fr NTU. yippeee... Anyway, we LOST our way when we gg to NTU... The whole ride i was laughing all the way.. hahahz So long nv laugh until no sound liao heez.. so happy... All 4 of us went to support Vanessa for her cheerleading competition!! But Ness's team nv win, so sad... hai..hugz.. Aft tt, nice Kaiyin send us all home! heez.. THks gal!
Yawnz... so happy today. tiring too becos of all the laughing.. heez. i love ya girls! nice time tgt tonite!

Elizabethtown- a show worth watching..

Watched Elizabethtown wif twinnie on sunday.. Miss ya twinnie!!! almost a mth since i laz see u.. toopid.. sorry i went "missing",ya so tis show specially reserved to watch wif u. keke..

Well, well, well.. wat do i got to say?.. beware.. opening of a long long long-winded entry fr dearest NinG... hahahaz.. if u hate my long winded stories, philosophies or theories..pls do me and urself a favour...click tis pg off.. hahahz.

Elizabethtown..touches on... Family (the ever most impt thing in my life..), LoVe ( a thing that is so complicated yet so simple), and FaTe ( cos tat is wat makes it happen! the place, the time, the ppl...). Tis show makes me tink...hmmm do a reflection maybe? tinking abt the above issues...
Dun worry Im not gg to say abt the plot.. juz the issues.. i promise! *winks*

Family (+ relatives) : Ppl whom u cared abt the most.. we all noe we get angry at one another time and again.. But well, they r our closest ppl, u noe wat i mean ya. Cherish them, treat them well.. cos in tis strange big world we live in.. u nv knew wat is gg to happen the next day. Im not trying to pessimistic.. but 1 day they might be gone.. n u wonder... wat have i really do for them? or treat them well? U nv know how diff illness can cause the harm in one's body.. Yes i prayed.. let the reports be well, n lessen my anxiety..

LoVe: Everyone wants them.. Dun deny.. hahhaz.. U nv experience life if u nv experience LOVE! hahahz. YaYa, i watched too much drama n read too much romance novels.. But isnt LoVe one of the greatest thing on earth? U learnt a hell lot from it too u noe. Every diff relationship is a story between u n him/her. Every story got its greatest memories, laughters, tears... like the songs that is significant to both of u and most prob makes u cry. The movie that u both love. The restaurant that u 2 always patronized. Its diff for every relationship and it makes every one of it so special. Dont u agree wif me? No matter gd or bad the outcome of it.. U muz be glad tt it HAPPENED! cos its not easy for 2 persons to noe each other.. fall in love and have created a story of their very own... n it goes to my 3rd pt..FaTe...

FaTe: I once had a conversation wif my bez pal Valarie, she says is FATE that brings the few of us ( my click of sec sch frens) tgt as gd frens. Think of someone u dun like, someone fr ur platoon, one of ur classmate, or colleague.. well. be positive! Have u wonder how come is HER/ HIM u meet and not someone else? Or UR BEZ PALS?? Like aint u lucky to have all those gd frens u have now?? IS all abt FATE isnt it?! hahhaz. WAt a wonderful thing! Things happened for a reason.. and fate is a path that makes things happen. Forget abt the bad thoughts for awhile.. and SMILEZ.. cos happy things DO HAPPENS.. Think abt ur family and frens and loved ones.. yupz. Fate brought u all tgt and make it all happen.

I noe... personally... LIFE ISNT AS PERFECT AS WE ALL ASSUME IT IS. PPL JUZ LOVE DECEIVING THEMSELVES. SO WE NEED SOMETHING TO MOTIVATE US. REASONS, LOGICS, THEORIES, PHILOSOPHIES, ANYTHING TO MAKE OURSELVES FEEL BETTER.. WORK HARDER, BE STRONGER... N MOVE FORWARD..

Smilez.. becos things happen for a reason.. and fate brought us tgt.. Dun ask me abt the future cos im no fortunte teller... Let things juz happen..

* Congrats my fren! Hope u get into the MoMo round. *

IM finally back to the NinG again..

These few weeks has been a torture for me.. Thinking abt alot of stuffs.. hu si luan xiang alot.. Finally make a final decision.. concerning my future.. Im back wif boo!
And for someone else.. i juz wish to say.. thanks for all the memories... i'll nv forget them..
I feel relieved right now.. knowing wat i did is right.. n im holding on to the right pair of hands.
Boo's love is wat i want to cherish now, i wont dare to say forever.. cos we nv noe wat happen in the future.. but all i could say is for now im contented..
Im finally out of my shell.. finally out of depression.. out of all the contradition..
Ppl u all can start asking me out already!! cos im ready... the Jian Ning u all noe is back! heez.
But first.. find me a job.. im so broke now. keke..
N of cos i have to start studying liao. haven got the mood recently to really study.. so now muz buck up le. heez.
I miss ya peeps.. all those tt i haven meet for ages.. esp kevin.. twinnie.. rick...
HUGZ..

In a brand new yr.. IM a STudenT!

Student student.. NO FUN! hahahaz... maybe becos i haven get the hang of being a student yet so is abit tough to act focus and concentrate during lecs. Esp when the first 3 lecs for "History of Management Thougts" r done by the RMIT lecturer. I cant really catch the eng! hahahz i mean i sorta understand lah but sometimes is juz too fast! hahhahaz. Gotta write notes real fast too.. hahhahz.. My timetable act quite slack. the only flaw is that i have night classes(HRM)- 7 to 10pm. Cos there are part time students too. so sad rite. Rch home 11pm liao. But the lecturer damn interesting for this mod. heez singaporean lah so i can understand the lec pretty well. heez.

Im so broke!! Alex pls call me back to work in the rdshow team! arghh. hahahz damn broke now lor. hahahz although he say he will arrange for me lah. Or else i really cant survive without work le lah.. super duper broke. Cant help it when there are sales everywhere! Aft xmas.. there is new yr.. den chi new yr! bleahx.

Everyday is raining.. it makes my mood more gloomy than ever. duh.