pretty saded

I cancelled the ktv outing cos most peeps msg saying that they couldnt make it. To me if there is a few ppl gg might as well dun go lor.. Maybe im too stubborn, too idealistic.. duh.. Forget it, will meet up next time den. Instead, i asked yiwen, yingda and cheryl out to Liquid Kitchen to chill. Really like it there, juz to nua. Plus it's pretty near home got straight bus. LK is like the wala version for me and yiwen, yingda they all. Hmmm with more comfy seats, tv for soccer fans, music (not live band)and strong aircon and there's poker cards too. Cute waiter is a bonus! hahhhz yup saw 1 today. At least it's much easier to meet up with the few of them than the whole lot of ppl i was hoping i could meet up today. Im not gg to org anything BIG or wif lotsa ppl in the future. Too hard to coordinate and waste lotsa of my smses ya. boo hoo. Ok i shall not be so petty. BUt its really tiring to org stuffs wif lotsa ppl. THe only thing im gg to org is probably like my own bday lor. duh. ANyway, back to LK...its a REALLY nice place in thomson..tink there's another outlet in serangoon-chomp chomp there. Im all praises for it. keke. Plus thks yd for the ride home though i noe im such a direction idiot tt yiwen has to guide him to yishun and not me. whahahz. sorry i dun even noe the way home..duh.. i juz dun recognise the rds! hurr!~

Gg to slp already. Disappointing nite @ first but lucky there's LK that saves the nite.
*yawnz* working tml...

pretty sad , disappointed...

Hmmm pretty disappointing.... Receiving smses from peeps that they r unable to make it for the ktv tonite..duh.. its so hard to meet everyone tgt ya.. Grrr... dampen my mood already and i tot i could have fun tonite.. Let's hope the "small little crowd" tonite can still make it fun.. I hope...
Grr....hurr..., boo-hoo..

Exciting life?

I was chatting on msn with my gd fren Vanessa laz nite. She's in the states for something like an exchange program organize by NTU to UCLA. Isnt it so damn cool?!~ She even went for a rdtrip i tink alone in san fran!!!! My goodness.. im filled with envy!! hahahahz.. yup yup. who doesnt wish they could be like my dear fren over there, enjoying life and nice scenery ( i saw pics on her cheerleading blog) and having the typical American life style there for 2 mths~~ Athough i wish i could be like her i doubt that's not gg to happen. Hmmm, i can nv survive alone or independently and i'll be so LOST in a foreign country alone without any companion!! How useless rite.. hurr..though i would love to live her life there. hmmm... My excitement would remain here in spore ya. DUH!~ hahhahaz.

Anyway, pretty excited abt tonite though i received a few msges in the morn telling me they couldnt make it for tonite's event. hmmm. I haven meet up wif the shop peeps for ages.I guess it's a gd time for a gathering before sch starts. Hopes to get updates and take lotsa pics!~ keke. Miss them and the fun they bring during my work there. Cheerios!~

Being the less than perfect

I realised im SO Less than perfect, nv the 100% kind of person. No matter wat i do, im always giving averagely 70%?? Nv 100% or more. SOme say u definitely have a passion, a interest or something u r gd at. Aft some serious thought.. NO!~i can be in hub for ard 2yrs yet there are a million and one thing tt i can make mistakes in. Maybe im juz blur, maybe i nv put in enuf effort to even rem certain stuffs. Seriously, i cant tink of anything tt im particularly gd at.. nope. My "fire" of interest doesnt last more than a few mths basically. I would like to say rather letting ppl say u r a failure or letting ppl noe tt u r not gd.. juz make a nice, graceful exit. Tt is a cowardly behaviour i noe!~ But it covers up the flaws nicely and let them fades away. I always NOE stuffs.. tis n tat, here n there, But nv perfect in them nv gd in them. Nv really bothered abt life. I would like to say i want a normal, (some say boring) stable life. Nuttin fasinating. SOmetimes, i wish n wish n wish IM some super happening person. Maybe some ppl tinks tt im "happening" enuf already. Anything more will make me too wild.. But wat i meant by happening is like doing something great and getting recognised for it. hmmm i cant really tink of an example. hmmm.

Sometimes (or most of the time) im juz the boring person who claims and hopes that she had something more in her life. More happening, more meaningful, more fulfilling.. Sad to say, commitment had nv been my middle name. Cant hold me focus for long. Im juz a shallow shell, not even a pretty one *duh.. * n quite empty in within.

* its juz some thoughts i have. A self-depreciating and self-realising ( i doubt there's such a word.. hmm did i juz created some new word????!~) session for myself. Dun try to console me, its juz some thoughts running thru my mind.


:the less than perfect:

Busy alone.

I used to hate gg shopping alone.. doing things alone.. seems so pathetic.. but as i grow older and when all ur frens are busy and everyone schedule's clashed..I learnt to do things alone.hahahz i mean i love "alone" time, like nuaing at home, reading a bk, doing my accessories.. But some activities are really more fun when doing with frens. When i have no choice like today, and i need to go out and get my stuffs done. I embarked on the journey of shopping alone. Actually it aint tt bad. At least u dun have to wait for another person. U could go anywhere u want to go.. Hmmm without the opinion of another person though. So it leads to alot of impulsive buys!~ hahahz well, it might be fun doing shopping and running some errands for urself alone. But not too often, cos life gets boring without frens ard u. heez. i still do love shopping n hanging out wif frens though twinnie always say im too buzy n neglected him! hhhahah sorry twinnie~

Anyway, i will only be alone in the aftnoon where i need to run a few places to get things done. Juz for tt few hrs! n MANGO sales is ON ladies~~ today 1st day! im juz gonna act auntie all over again at the outlets~! hhahhaz if u seee me in such a state, pretend u dun see me k. hahahhahaz.
Dinner wif val they all tonite and den Weijie ( laz time shop's temp) 's chalet @ pasir ris. Aint i busy! hahahz but i love being buzy.

Gotta go eat my lunch n get ready to leave the hse! Lack of time to do so many things~ Bye peeps!

Get connected yet again.!~

Im finally connected !~ laptop crashed and i had been away for more than a wk.. i lose all my precious files.. all those pics!! so sad.. but those old one i still have it in my back up disc. The newer one are those tt i lost.. Lesson learnt is to always back up ur files!~ Tis new lappy is an advanced bday gift fr daddy and mummy.. Bought tgt wif my sis (the same model) laz sat. It's a pretty gd deal seriously for a Fujitsu lappy plus i trade in my toshiba for 450 bucks.. wahahahhaz. N lucky me only have to pay half of it. the rest is by my beloved parents. Muacks to daddy and mummy!~

So long since i laz blogged. Kinda lost in wat to write. New lappy wif nuttin much of me in an empty laptop...its like starting afresh, so i also changed a new blogskin. Some stuffs are lost, some memories are better to be kept as memories and not be reminded of their ugly truth i guess. A way to make oneself feels better is always rem the happier things in life and let the ugly reality which we noe in the bottom of our hearts yet we tried our best to forget abt it to juz fade away as time past. Well, life is juz like tt. It's actually pretty gd to start anew too.. it feels hmmm clean.. hahhz i noe im weird.

Anyway, a summary of updates of wat im up to recently. Had been working at adecco for 3 days temp admin, cont to do my handmade accessories for summberbloomz, celebrating frens' bdays.. like liangjie's one at momo ( yes i finally club @ momo..the aircon super strong there lor.duh), and lyly's one at pasir ris costa sands. Nuttin much for me. Juz my usual nua self.

-end of updates-

Gg to start "work" on my accessories again. it's a nice feeling to be back online. i tink im an addict. *smilez*

PC Show -Suntec

Busy Busy.. it was as usual a large crowd..madness, confusion, n totally LOST cos of the very different promos available. hahahz but all in all it is still FUN!! keke.. working wif Yiwen and Geri tgt @ the recontract side of the booth. heez. So happy all my cust today all gdgd one.. heez im so LUCKY! hahahz get praised somemore.. but kenna scolded by IC Edmund.. cos i TOO NOISY Le..boo.. cant help it ma. how to stop my big mouth. Noe 2 new gals doing recon wif us one oso cute cute de! heez.. Today is juz the starting.. more madness to come on wkends.. Hope i dun fall sick.. had been working so hard recently...My dark eye rings can be compared to panda liao... boo hoo..

cant keep my eyes open liao. nites..