why can adults be so hurtful???

On yst 26/01/2007:
Meet up wif afew peeps that i had missed so much! hahhaz it so happened tt "ah boy"shi xiang is classmates wif my 2 temps so i msged him and there it goes an impromtu dinner meet up. Thks ah boy for the dinner and the free ride! heez *pat on the head* good boy! hahahz

Next stop was to meet kev for a chat before we both head to the clubs on a fri nite. we r gg to 2 diff places somemore. hahhaz but at least we manage to do a little catching up. It's gd to meet ppl tt u haven meet for a long time. cant explain it. but it juz feels gd. familarity u could say it is.

Next stop to MOS to meet office peeps. hmm lots of complications though it doesnt involve me. but it does make me tink abt some stuffs though. Why can adults be so hurtful to one another? If love can be so cruel to some, den why love? i guess the way a person handles a relationship differs fr others. Oh well. adults.. a tag wif more responsibilities. restricting behaviour, actions and attitudes. All adults wear mask juz how many layers. Some does becos of evil intentions, some becos of the situations, some becos of self defense. There is always a reason to do so. We juz hope these masks arent hurtful to others or even oneself.

I hope i dun grow up. i wish i do not need to face the same situations as them. NOt trying to say i wan to lead a pampered spoilt life but at least i wish its more smooth sailing. Adults make decisions, every decision is a choice.. a wrong move changes everything..

I tink it has been quite a nite. I witness things i nv see before. I feel the fear, the anger, the helplessness. And oso the friendship, the courage and the love. i nearly want to cry. NOt becos it involve me. but more like the ppl ard me. And becos it was in such a situation that is so helpless and upsetting... and of cos the fear that something real bad is gg to happen (luckily it din).

p/s: and to someone that i still cant give my trust completely though i wish i could. im sorry i doubt u and has been pretty rude, but i guess u probably wont noe and wont read tis. Happy birthday to "kor" ya, fr "mai ha nee"...

my new red hair is fading

My new red hair is fading! sobz sobz. gotta get tt colourstay shampoo tis wkend. haven even gotten a proper pic wif my new red hair and its gg to be gone so soon.. hurr...

SOmething fr my HRD lec:

What is learning?
Relatively permanent change in behavior or behavior potential that results from one's experiences (Sigelman & Shaffer,2003)

THerefore, no matter how gd or bad an experience is, its always a learning journey.

~~~~~~~

I miss..the good old times.
The days in poly.. I miss meeting up wif alot of peeps.. seems like we r not as close as before.
I have been so busy.. i guess everyone is.
Even when we finally get to meet up, im afraid i dunno wat to say or do..
The days when innocence are still intact.
The times when smiles are always true.

I miss... the good old times.
The 6 mths i was @ the shop
The days that i spent my wildest days though i have now been tamed
The days when the fun start as night came,
the songs sang and the beer drank til tears fall.

Those were the days...

I feel like im old like a 25, working like a 24, relationship stable as a 23, studying like a 22, wild as a 21, looking back at the days when im 20, missing the sch days at 19, looking like a 18, broke as 17, and lost the innocence of a 16.

Thru experiences, i had learnt many thru these stages of life and proceeding to the next stage.

Will u learn along wif me?

crazy time wif adecco's kors

YSt was crazy.. initially was intending to go MOS wif cai yiyi and crystal one but 2 ah kors not in the mood to club so we ended up nua-ing @ where.....????? SHAW CENTRE LOR! haiz. *laughters* everyday in the office liao. chill out oso want to go back to the same place.. same area.. but the good thing is we got free drinks lah! hahahhaz thks to our dear client! heezz...
Drank free coffee liao den moved to the ever reliable 24 hrs Mac to nua and eat supper.. Had a hell of a time laufing and toking cok.. all my "ugly sights" all out liao lor.. no "yi tai" @ all lor.. But hell lah.. i dun give a damn. neither do they. hahhahhaz my 2 ah kors had seen me cry, lauf, whine, crazy.. basically nuttin normal lor. whahahz. Like tt siao siao until 330am den go home lor. kaoz.. and i have a lec tis morn @ 930.. sobz.. But i din miss class! IM A GOOD GAL! hahahaz.

Aft class, went Bugis to meet my mummy den later joined by my jie jie and papa. Chinese new yr shoppping!!! bought a very nice dress!! keke.. thks mummy!! muacks. I now waiting for the pair of heels i asked geri to help me online buy one. QUIckly ship to me!!! Best before CNY so i could wear it during the festive season. Heezz..

okie enuf of my rubbish. Have u ever wonder why some ppl u might only noe or get close to for a few mths yet u can be very good frens and tok abt alot of things and some ppl u juz look @ them and ur mind juz switch off or in a hibernating mode.. hmmm.. oh have u ever tink of tis verse: 'the leopard does not change its spots'- stating a person doesnt change his/ her bad behavior or attitudes,etc. * take note: use in a negative manner/perspective*

A leopard doesnt change its spots becos if it changes its spots den it wont be a leopard anymore? its juz a natural thing for a leopard to have spots...an inborn thing.hmmm but we humans arent leopards are we? We are created in a way we can changed and improve for the better ya. We juz have to believe that everyone is able to do tt.

my new creations+ some updates

Some updates: Laz sat i helped out during the apb training heez had fun wif the peeps fr work @ suntec city. Aft tt went to meet boo and his "bros" to celebrate laibao's bday. Yummy. we went to tis restaurant tt is so identical to the one i went wif rick and geri called Carnivore @ vivo city. Dunno which restaurant is 1st to be in the mkt but its ALL MEAT! hahahahz yummy yummy meat. hahahz. Another similarity is that both cost a bomb lah. *duh* hahaz. DEn we all went over to leong's place to pay daidi. I mean they played i watched. hahahz THe art of losing and winning money over 52 cards. Cant stayed awake wif them the whole nite so i left @ 3 to catch some slp for the next day.

okie. sun my hse having a party.. celebrating my grandma's bday. So all my relatives came over. Mummy cooked a big feast! i tink im growing so fat wif all tis good food lah. bleahx.

ANyway, let's look @ my latest creation -a revamped old notebk (dd 15/01/07).. (pics below).























(top: Front view, Bottom: Back view)

Lastly, below is an ad for radio 91.3 promoting Suzanne Walker's program that i found on the laz page of FEMALE mag jan issue. NOt tt i listen to the station or her program but The words on it are damn interesting and meaningful. Juz in case u cant see clearly, im gg to type it out and u'll noe y i love tiz ad so much. *wink*



























WHAT's LOVE?

• It's not how many times you failed in love, it's how many times you open your heart to love.
• Love- a four letter word you can utter illogically( sometimes carelessly) but very difficult to explain logically.
• ROmance- the flavours of love
• Kiss- the moment when you realise science, logic and words are superfluous.
• Longing- a chemical reaction of the heart called desire.
• Making love- when the chemical reaction becomes a combustion that ragess like a forest fire through the whole body ( sometimes).
• Heartbreak-the moment when the chemicals no longer bring about a reaction.
• Marriage- the perfect union of 2 chemicals.
• Affairs- lust disguised as love with a non fairy-tale ending.
• LOve songs- a vital aphrodisiac for any romantic nights.

That's what's written on the ad. Wonderful isnt it. Well, that's my personal opinion.

Hope u all enjoyed. =)

im pampered..life isnt tt pretty simple

Some totss...

There are so many a times admitted im kinda like a pampered spoilt brat yet believing that im sensitive and mature in my own rights.=.... but of cos there are always others that are better or worse than one self...i used to tink that being a pampered spoilt brat have to be rich.. well, since im not well off i say im "kinda" pampered. heeez. but it dawn on me tat u dun haf to be rich to be pampered... u juz need alot of ppl to dote and pamper and love u.. i have so often feel "inferior" or "restricted" by my wealth or ability. but seriously... i look @ my payslip and bills and receipts.. i tink i SPEND ALOT ALOT ALOT>.... my goodnesss. i really got a shock rite thru looking at the no shown on the calculator. That kinda explains why i am always broke.. i cant believe i spend tt much either. *faintz* Looking @ the less fortunate and im not even saying those in other countries but juz other normal beings like u and me on the streets that are living in less than average family have to scrap or spend so much less than ourselves. I guess its the environment, looking ard.. most of my frens are pretty well off.. tt's y i always tell boo im not rich cos look ard me.. they r living much better than i am. but i nv realised there are so many others in the world that are not.

ok... so im not tt good.. hmmm but of cos there are examples of ppl better off and worse off... hearing some true life accts fr others, there are ppl worse than me. I mean the spending, the temper, the attitude.. eh the whole package lah basically. and someone who is willing to accept it all and tolerate it for 6 yrs. Im amazed by the tolerance of tis fren of mine. So i start to believe that maybe im not tt incorrigible, tt unreasonable and selfish and pampered aft all. cos now i noe that is someone that is of so much higher "level".. hahaz. I dunno whether i shld be glad or wat, but i tink its kinda funny. So im acting like a princess but someone else is acting like a queen.. hahahaz..

Enuf said.. i shall aim to be a better person though it proves hard. I guess all my frens are already to used to me BEING ME...like tt. *shake head* I MUZ LEARN TO BE A BETTER PERSON..hmmm. YES! Pls remind and encourage me to be less pampered and spoilt. =)

#NinG* trying to be a better person..

Start of a brand new yr!

Spend my New yr the same way i spend my xmas.. wif my gals...Oh and zx and bren! whahaz. Spend the whole nite toking... it would be another half a yr before we could get tgt since we juz send vanessa off @ changi airport tis morn. I hope she takes good care of herself in India.. somewhere so foreign and culturally different.. But oh well, it's a life time experience to be able to have internship there. And im sure she'll be able to make it great! *hugz*!

It's a start of a brand new yr.. reminding me that im gg to be 1 yr older.. Have to be clearer in how im gg to lead my life in the future... New Goals and new resolutions to be added to my previous list..

• Go abroad! wif my family or wif boo
• Speak better english
• Read more
• Get myself an internship @ some big company
• Earn more
• Be a better person, less selfish, more caring, more considerate....
• Have clearer goals of the future..
• Stop acting like a kid
• Embrace each brand new day wif purpose and hope

* I realised i go to airport so often every year... not that im always gg abroad. More like im always sending ppl off.. partings are always sad.. and it reminds us that time will passed before we see each other the next time. I could juz imagine next time when we are all out in the society working.. I would have Vanessa the business woman, Lydia the teacher, Kaiyin the social worker, Val the HR executive... Hhaha at least val and me are in the same line. 8yrs and countin.. oh was it 9 yrs already.. i lost track of time...

I want this yr to be different from the rest. I want to be more mature and more grown up! i guess i say tis every single yr. hahahz. oh well.. I want to noe wat i want to achieve in life before i grad at the end of 2007. How time flies........ i tot i could delay time by gg back to sch. and in another yr time im being thrown back to the reality of having to work. Not that im not exactly working now but its so different being a "temp" and a "full time perm" staff.

I want tis yr to be GREAT... and i hope it will be for all my frens too..

P/s: gg to jumpstart tis brand new yr wif a new scent, opening up "Lovely" by Sarah Jessica Parker ( the bday gift fr 'daddy','cong cong' and cheryl). maybe i'll have an exciting life like "Carrie" (was tt the name of the char?) in Sex and the City. *winkz*

Xmas @ Val's...

Going to miss her!! Take care Van!

The sleepy faces laz nite......