STRESSED!~
STRESSED!!~ i noe i scream and shout. i flare up my temper and i cried....
Feeling the whole is unfair and why am i squeezing my barely there intelligence and killing all my brain cells to do a stupid 4000 words assignment for my Strategic Managment module on a case study on GE! duh.....
WHo says studying is easy........grrrrrrrrrr..........
So stressed that i dun enuf time, so stressed that i still gotta work though i still luv my work, so stresssed that i might not even be correct in my analysis of the case study.... but lucky with the help of frens (ting, yuling, and ah hong), we "fight" tgt......
Beneath everything that i felt so extremely unhappy about and the so call "imbalance" and negative stuffs running thru my head, feeling the world is unfair and im unlove with low intelligence..........boils down to my attitude, according to my boo boo who noes me so well.....
Yup, i gotta admit it but i juz dun like to. It's the ego. plain and simple. I dun like to study, simply said, i dun put much effort in studying activities such as studying for exams, doing assignments etc. I rather work, shop, club, slp or watch drama. Basically i work more than i study. But im not stupid, i make sure i pass or score a credit. But damn my ego for being big, that i cant stand to lose or feel stupid for my insignificant grades. But tt doesnt apply for all modules. I noe my limits and my standard, so i gauge my grades. Still, it feels kinda demoralising when u realised u r juz not as smart, (nevermind the fact that i dun study much...yes i noe is the attitude....grr.).
And if i noe u put in alot of effort in doing ur work, even if u win , i respect u, cos u deserved it!!! Pat on the back for both yuling and yanting who score stars for consistency of hardwork. But i dislike ppl who hides their effort and compare their grades or perf. Damn! Didnt i mention a million times that i din do extremely well!~!~ Compare openly lah. duh cos i DUN LIE. Doesnt mean that im proud of my grades that are lower than others. But i understand how much effort and intelligence translate to the final grading. So i guess i have been doing ok for my kind of standard. Whahahhahz........................ but not good enuf to compare wif others.
Duh. Nevermind my rambling... Juz some thoughts fr the past wk due to the intense stress im experiencing, i think the wires in my brain are tangled.........
okie gotta slp....cos as usual, mon is a working day. same as wed.. and yes.. fri...
Feeling the whole is unfair and why am i squeezing my barely there intelligence and killing all my brain cells to do a stupid 4000 words assignment for my Strategic Managment module on a case study on GE! duh.....
WHo says studying is easy........grrrrrrrrrr..........
So stressed that i dun enuf time, so stressed that i still gotta work though i still luv my work, so stresssed that i might not even be correct in my analysis of the case study.... but lucky with the help of frens (ting, yuling, and ah hong), we "fight" tgt......
Beneath everything that i felt so extremely unhappy about and the so call "imbalance" and negative stuffs running thru my head, feeling the world is unfair and im unlove with low intelligence..........boils down to my attitude, according to my boo boo who noes me so well.....
Yup, i gotta admit it but i juz dun like to. It's the ego. plain and simple. I dun like to study, simply said, i dun put much effort in studying activities such as studying for exams, doing assignments etc. I rather work, shop, club, slp or watch drama. Basically i work more than i study. But im not stupid, i make sure i pass or score a credit. But damn my ego for being big, that i cant stand to lose or feel stupid for my insignificant grades. But tt doesnt apply for all modules. I noe my limits and my standard, so i gauge my grades. Still, it feels kinda demoralising when u realised u r juz not as smart, (nevermind the fact that i dun study much...yes i noe is the attitude....grr.).
And if i noe u put in alot of effort in doing ur work, even if u win , i respect u, cos u deserved it!!! Pat on the back for both yuling and yanting who score stars for consistency of hardwork. But i dislike ppl who hides their effort and compare their grades or perf. Damn! Didnt i mention a million times that i din do extremely well!~!~ Compare openly lah. duh cos i DUN LIE. Doesnt mean that im proud of my grades that are lower than others. But i understand how much effort and intelligence translate to the final grading. So i guess i have been doing ok for my kind of standard. Whahahhahz........................ but not good enuf to compare wif others.
Duh. Nevermind my rambling... Juz some thoughts fr the past wk due to the intense stress im experiencing, i think the wires in my brain are tangled.........
okie gotta slp....cos as usual, mon is a working day. same as wed.. and yes.. fri...
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