I think i have made my final decision
I understand that everyone hates their jobs.. maybe Hate is too strong a word to use but most people have a whole lists of rants and complaints to whine about their job. But there must be a reason why most ppl stayed on right? A good established company that provides good prospect, great bonus package, above the market salary, great staff benefits & welfare, etc etc. This is precisely what i want to explain to the rest of the world why i want to leave. None of the above reasons are applicable to me. NONE. And i do not wish to deny my decision to leave (most prob tendering 1st Oct), is triggered by a few incidents that happened recently.. It is no longer because i think the job is boring, there is no prospect, it is too far away or even the pay is low. Cos money to me is not a very big issue, impt but not the most crucial. So if you think i am Childish, immature, insensible to have made such a decision to leave when the job market is dry and the economy is bad, i have to admit that what you say abt the envirnoment is true but what you say about my character is only half true. I do not deny that it seems like a childish act but i have to yet once again explain my action. WHen a person has no passion in what she is doing, and do not feel motivated in doing her job. I dont see a reason to stay. There is no learning ground, no prospect, no big fat bonus packet (dream on.), no above the mkt basic salary, and is far from home. I have stayed on for 8 months til date. Im not trying to boast that it is a great victory of some sort but i hope to show that i have put in effort to make it work and have tried my best to stayed on. If it is not so intolerable these days that i have to cry my eyes swollen everyday to work for the past few days i guess i would have chose to be sensible and stayed.
Do i have to add that i do not have a "proper" desk at work no corporate office but a small messy one. I showed yanting a video that Justin took of me in the office. She nearly fainted. I guess becos she has never worked in a non corp environment before. But the office is oso a small issue, i survived 8 mths there din i? I am always affected by issues of people & relations. Anyway, for all those who are truly concerned, i am really fine now. Thank you for all those who cared. My emotions are calmer now, i am no longer angry about what is happening. I understand that, this is life.. i noe. I hope you all understand that I DO UNDERSTAND what you all have told me, and your advises are always at the back of my head reminding my every actions. I have only one simple request. Look at it from my point of view for once and give me the confidence and support that i need. I dont deny that i envy all my friends who are having jobs that have better prospects, and a fatter pay cheque. ANd they also dont deny to me that all of those comes with a very stress job scope. But at least they know they are working towards a certain thing that keeps them going. I dont think i am motivated at all. And neither am i happy. "What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger!" i think i can never fulfil it. I can nv become stronger. All i will take a slower path to become stronger. My sincere apologies to all those that feel that i have disappoint them. I just want to say it is really about being happy about doing the job, it gives job satisfaction. I used to be a temp @ adecco, i can work late to do the part timer pay for the clients, i ever cried becos janet is having hospitalisation leave and i have no idea how to do the perm staff payrolling for the clients. But I grow and i learnt and im glad to say i become good at it. There are no OT pay, i am just a temp staff, there are no additional benefits, but i love the ppl and the job there. Of cos once in awhile, i get frustrated but generally i know what i am doing and i noe i did quite well in it. Even if Shirley is paying me lower at that time, i would still have continued and help her and janet, moreover i am proud to be part of the team.
I am not a job hopper and i have always tried to be sensible and listen to advises given by all those that i respected and trust. My emotional breakdown is a sign of weakness that i cannot deny. And i can promise you that i will grow up thus i decided to bear the consequence of being jobless (very soon) because that makes me a happier person. Sometimes i wonder if i have made the right decision. But if people whom i respected and trust supports me, i will feel confident enough to take over the whole world. Stop making me feel like im so useless compared to all of you. Don't i deserved that little support?
I rem i have always been different. When all of them went to JC, i chose Poly. I have 14 for L1R5, i could have gone to one of the neighbourhood JC if i wanted. When most people score A for their test, i get a C. When most people get C, surprisingly i've gotten an A. It is a difficult decision to make, but i think just let me be "insensible". I have whined and complained but sometimes i also commented on the little perks and privileges but still at the end of the day it does not satisfy me.
I am upset not solely becos of the job or what is happening at work. But more on why the people i respected and trust the most, did not see from my stand and did not give me the support & trust when i needed it the most. My sincere thanks to all those who really cared and i know are really worried for me. And of cos a big credit to my boo who has always supported me. Im sorry that i have even doubted him. I asked, " did you support me becos im ur gf or becos u really see it fr my point of view?". And his reply was,"I supported you becos i believe one should at least be comfortable & happy with what they are doing. Live your life the way you want." I am truly touched by his words. He has also helped me to understand from another perspective so that i feel less upset. I was so upset with my parents. But i think it is a communication problem that we would have to solve. Anyway, i hope this episode is closed, and may i have good news to share soon.
Do i have to add that i do not have a "proper" desk at work no corporate office but a small messy one. I showed yanting a video that Justin took of me in the office. She nearly fainted. I guess becos she has never worked in a non corp environment before. But the office is oso a small issue, i survived 8 mths there din i? I am always affected by issues of people & relations. Anyway, for all those who are truly concerned, i am really fine now. Thank you for all those who cared. My emotions are calmer now, i am no longer angry about what is happening. I understand that, this is life.. i noe. I hope you all understand that I DO UNDERSTAND what you all have told me, and your advises are always at the back of my head reminding my every actions. I have only one simple request. Look at it from my point of view for once and give me the confidence and support that i need. I dont deny that i envy all my friends who are having jobs that have better prospects, and a fatter pay cheque. ANd they also dont deny to me that all of those comes with a very stress job scope. But at least they know they are working towards a certain thing that keeps them going. I dont think i am motivated at all. And neither am i happy. "What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger!" i think i can never fulfil it. I can nv become stronger. All i will take a slower path to become stronger. My sincere apologies to all those that feel that i have disappoint them. I just want to say it is really about being happy about doing the job, it gives job satisfaction. I used to be a temp @ adecco, i can work late to do the part timer pay for the clients, i ever cried becos janet is having hospitalisation leave and i have no idea how to do the perm staff payrolling for the clients. But I grow and i learnt and im glad to say i become good at it. There are no OT pay, i am just a temp staff, there are no additional benefits, but i love the ppl and the job there. Of cos once in awhile, i get frustrated but generally i know what i am doing and i noe i did quite well in it. Even if Shirley is paying me lower at that time, i would still have continued and help her and janet, moreover i am proud to be part of the team.
I am not a job hopper and i have always tried to be sensible and listen to advises given by all those that i respected and trust. My emotional breakdown is a sign of weakness that i cannot deny. And i can promise you that i will grow up thus i decided to bear the consequence of being jobless (very soon) because that makes me a happier person. Sometimes i wonder if i have made the right decision. But if people whom i respected and trust supports me, i will feel confident enough to take over the whole world. Stop making me feel like im so useless compared to all of you. Don't i deserved that little support?
I rem i have always been different. When all of them went to JC, i chose Poly. I have 14 for L1R5, i could have gone to one of the neighbourhood JC if i wanted. When most people score A for their test, i get a C. When most people get C, surprisingly i've gotten an A. It is a difficult decision to make, but i think just let me be "insensible". I have whined and complained but sometimes i also commented on the little perks and privileges but still at the end of the day it does not satisfy me.
I am upset not solely becos of the job or what is happening at work. But more on why the people i respected and trust the most, did not see from my stand and did not give me the support & trust when i needed it the most. My sincere thanks to all those who really cared and i know are really worried for me. And of cos a big credit to my boo who has always supported me. Im sorry that i have even doubted him. I asked, " did you support me becos im ur gf or becos u really see it fr my point of view?". And his reply was,"I supported you becos i believe one should at least be comfortable & happy with what they are doing. Live your life the way you want." I am truly touched by his words. He has also helped me to understand from another perspective so that i feel less upset. I was so upset with my parents. But i think it is a communication problem that we would have to solve. Anyway, i hope this episode is closed, and may i have good news to share soon.
