so tired of everything

Im really tired of everything. Trying so hard to be neutral already. I noe stuffs like that happens everywhere and i shld juz learn to grow up and cope with it. But if i have chosen to follow my heart long ago, maybe i wont be involve in this mess at all. There are so many reasons to leave, and juz becos i cant get the support i need.. i stayed on.. because of this ONE reason, i told myself i shld be more mature and responsible until today when things get out of hand and it burst out like an atomic bomb. Y cant i deserve more trust and support than that? Im feeling so useless about myself for the entire year. I dont know what to expect at the meeting tomorrow. I juz wish things can be settled calmly.. i juz need my pillars of support to be there. Thks boo for being there.


so so so tired... nv been so upset in regards to tis kind of issues before.