WhAt HaPpEn to Me ReCeNtLY?

im feeling stressed? tired? easily irriated.. hai.. i really duno wat happened to me recently. I juz booked a tour to Bangkok wif dear.. We gg to spend 4 days 3 nites there.. Im gg to SHOP!!! But im so broke now lor.. broke until i cant join Vinny n the rest for clubbing tis wkend. Broke until muz saved up for money n work more often. SigH.. im juz not feeling gd recently.. BPC has started today.. Me as the CEO has to conduct meetings lah.. get things done lah.. Sometimes i really wonder if im up to it. Im seriously lack of confidence i guess.. I tink im not gd enuf. i fear i might screw up. I fear i'll blew my top over the slightest things, i fear things wont run smoothly. I fear i cant make the class cooperate.. I fear CONFLICTS.. ...... Im afraid of not meeting everyone's expectation of mi.. n my own.

I dunno wat happen to me n dear now oso. Is juz stagnent i guess. Tgt for almost a yr le.. Hope we have a great time during tis trip which is specially organized for his 21th bday. Maybe i shld be tinking of wat i want in life. Im feeling more like a wandering ghost recently. In need of $, friends, support, comfort, n self-being. Where is my soul?