wat happen to mi again?

I feeling dejected, depressed, confused, meaningless, sian-ness creeping all over mi.. day by day... i duno wat i am doing or wat i shld be doing in the first place. so i resort to entertaining myself... Like plucking my eyebrows, painting my nails, watching taiwan au xiang ju. Sumtimes..is my fault actually. cos i dun feel like meeting ppl. I noe who ever who noe me and read tis will find it funny.. Im serious. There are times where i dun feel like socializing. Times i need companion but not the socializing kind. So i realised "bao bao","daidai","cookie monster" with a set of au xiang ju can actually make my day. Cos i actually feel comfort and console in doing so. Hhahaz finding my inner peace??? I still cant find it lor. I still have tis awful feeling- tis dive ur heart takes...all the way down to ur belly kind. The kind where u either get it when u broke up wif ur loved one or haf a terrible argument wif sumone. Im not near any of the 2 but the same kind of feelin is wat i get. Maybe sumting more mild lah. Maybe is juz me. It always happen.. i told myself. Ups and downs... hurr.. so sian. Anyway, pretty glad to noe tat jeff is back fr USA for a vacation. I missed him the laz time he came back. I was in cambodia, so tis time muz definitely meet up wif him. Tml is oso rdshow day. Hopefully will haf sales. money... i need money..