Dun ask me how i am feeling..

Yes.. read the title of tis entry. im not being mean. is juz tat. the ans might juz lies in tis entry. Things are getting a little messy down here. Ppl come my taggie to comment. As it seems, i had to reply.. I want to quote that short para fr one of my prev entry but i cant copy n paste fr my bloggie pg.( the part on ppl drifting away is part n parcel of life.. blah blah..) hurr. anyway, wat im gg to say is. I guess i haf to say out names already. Ppl under tat para includes alot of ppl.. not only one particular one. It includes like ness,lydia, yin.. studying in uni now, quite hard to meet up or even to catch up cos we no longer understand each other so well like laz time. Val noes me bez still hahahz thanks gal! But no matter hw nt close we r , we still stand by each other becos we come a long way back to zhss sec1. I luv them no matter wat. Other ppl being missed n drifted include, ctma's yiling,liying. The days there are most memorable. Nt to forget boyboy, don don, they all. MIss the little boys lotsa. I miss BEN. He will always be my no 1 fling candidate hahahz, the little crush n puppy love days. oh well..

Another bothering thing is im being accused by something i did not do. Damn it. ya by dear's fren. kinda complicated. i dun want to put down names lah. cos i noe aft awhile settle already we r all frens n bear no grudges. but juz to comment on wat dear say abt my behavior wif chee leong they all.( he say im trying to hard.) ya i agree. cos i wanted to be involve in their grp. the grp of "brothers" r so close knitted. i admit i appear somewat sticky at times but i merely want to join in the fun! I want to be the perfect gf. the one tat goes out wif the boys, the one tt doesnt mind all those silly jokes share, the one tt noes the secrets abt them yet keep her mouth shut n be understanding, i want to be the one tt ppl will say" ur gf so gd.....!!" yes. i want to be the perfect gf with my less than perfect behavior ( mainly my short temper, my wilfulness n tons more of flaws). I LOVE U DEARIE! juz wanna be the bez gf for u. JUz wanna be the gf that the boys like n accept.

u noe wat peeps, blogs are a kind of complicated thingy. U want ppl to read. yet u want privacy. it's funnie rite..hurr.. i guess its unwise too be too personal while using the blog space.. some stuffs shld keep within the heart. it keeps ur secret forever. ok lah. memories more like it. downrite upset. i need my toxic(bao bao)...n a hug. a kiss, a sayang.