Confused.. .: i finish watching "e mo zai sheng bian" le.

I slept @ 4am yst.. reason being.. i watched "e mo zai sheng bian"... during the laz eps.. tears was flowing down my face for almost the whole 40 over mins.. When "ah meng" decides to leave the country.... when he treated "xiao yue" so coldly and so distant.. When they finally get tgt on the laz nite before he flys away... sob sob... lucky no one is awake to see my tear streaked face and the sobbing sound coming fr my throat. hahahahz.. i din cry the whole 19 eps.. its juz at the laz eps......hai.. my at least its a happy ending.. The things the love birds go thru to be tgt.. The love tt makes the "devil" feels alive again. The "devil" tt dare to love... the "devil" tt is every gal's fantasy. Got attitude prob, suave, ride bike, rich, soft hearted but he doesnt show, stubborn, bad tempered, devoted, and extremely handsome~ oh man.. im fallling in love. all over again.. hmmm wat if i found someone so so so similar in real life? Possible? But abit unrealistic rite. Who would want someone like tt in real life? No security- mei you an quan gan. U definitely wont noe if he is so devoted like the guy in the show, am i rite. How cruel is Reality? If someone is so similar to what i mentioned above, he probably is a playboy le ba.. hahahhaz. hai.. I like HE JUN XIANG!~!~ "chu le ni, wo shui dou bu yao."-ah meng to xiao yue.

* mind over drive again.. n im getting very mean to ppl ard me @ times.. Im so sorry!... hai. i cant help it sometimes... stop me fr being so mean.. hai.. *

state of depression... den..it was madness..

Suffered a state of depression for probably the whole wk. COld weather.. my mood seems to be as gloomy as the weather everyday.. damn.. Hopefully, work would be smooth until i finally tender. So i wont have to care anymore.. duh...Yst went a hearty lunch wif the team-Nat, meiyi,edna, jackson n weina. Edna's treat @ bakerzin..yummy! hahhaz Meet my sec sch frens, specially for ben whom i haven meet for ages.. I stayed for dinner only. Cos seriously i wasnt in the mood to meet. But i really very long nv see Ben so i tot i shld go n meet up wif them u see. Inferior complexity comes in again.. every single time i meet them.. no matter who ( juz a selected few tt im comfortable wif.), no matter where. I have changed! NO longer the small little gal.. the conservative, ugly, stupid gal. IM getting somewhere now i guess. I had lotsa frens, ppl like me most of the time. But y cant i get some recognition or some compliments from tis grp of ppl?? I juz cant seem to be ME when im wif them. Is juz not me. So kindly ask them to stop assuming they noe me all my life or tink of me the way they perceive it to be... Come on.. i dun need U ALL to tell me wat is cool wat is not? i dun need U ALL to tell me how gd or how bad i am... Stop squshing my self esteem, and feeling as if u r top of the world. Stop critising abt things i do when now u r doing the same thing that u called stupid silly or even bitchy. or "yikes..eeks" tt comes to ur mind when u knew i wear make up, went clubbing, wear tube tops or sphagetti straps. Now U r doing the damn same thing. N im juz so not interested abt all of ur nonsense! If u tink its bad den when im doing those stuffs, y do u still do it now?! How i wish i got the courage to throw all these words at u. but i noe i cant, n i wont.. although i wish to. Im not a mean person.. n im too inferior to do tt. Even if i did. im still the "bad person" in the end. no one is gg to give me their sympathy. Its not worth it for U.. N for the rest.. i duno how they would react if they see the "real" me one day. N i dun care. Im not how i used to be 3/4 yrs ago. Stop putting that damn image of me ages ago n put it on me. Whenu DUNNO me.. DUN JUDGE... Tt is so much anger and hatred in me sometimes tt i feel so evil.. im ok wif all other grp of frens. but juz this tiny minority grp always seems to make me emotions jumble up.. gosh.. i wrote so much... i hope writing ease tt little hurt tt is so deeep in me.

Let's tok abt happy moments.. KTV wif the temps staffs, Nicole and queenie (CS) came oso. We had so much fun in the bIG BIG VIP rm! singing, taking pic wif nicole's W800i, drinking beer.. Make new frens.. tok rubbish.. tat is wat i call LIFE! keke.. but damn tired aft tt. LEft at 4am and took a cab home. Slept for 2 hrs only cos i need to help JIe jie make up to let her mei mei to go be "jie mei" for her gd fren's wedding. Woke up in the morn n went to work wearing my specs. hhahhaz. u could see my ultra mini eyes, dark eye rings and eye bags.. gosh. wat an ugly sight. bleahz..

Gg to cont chiong my "e mo zai sheng bian" vcd these 2 days.. he jun xiang is ... i cant find a word to describle how much i like him!!! haahhz yes yes im gg to drool...

Not a very nice off day alone..

On leave but my blackberry kept ringing... hurr.. y muz it be on my off day??? Went to SIM to submit my forms.. it takes less than 10 mins.. duh.. go all the way tt juz to make the payment n submit the forms.. Next was to my cust's shop.. he sells pretty cool shoes at wheelock place. heez. but din meet him lah juz pass the stuffs to the shop staff.

Went Orchard library to return n borrow novels.. yeah.. but received a phone call n change my mood.. hai.. blur me.. stupid customer.. n i kanna complained... I recently really really very suay sia.. So many problems for my work orders.. hai.. spare me can. i only got 1 more mth left. Gg to tender real soon once the agency lady calls me back. Y she always on urgent leave or MC when i call her in the office?! damn im cursed..so suay!!!! Grrrr... I want to get a clear ans for my enquires on my leaves n stuffs.. n den im gg to " throw letter" liao. wahhahz. finally! Went back to PS shop today .. hahaz everyone tinks i siao on leave still go back. Becos i left my lunch box there yst!! hahhaz.

Anyway, i tink the luckiest thing tt happens to me today is i finally get to watch " er mo zai sheng bian"..Devils by my side. Tt au xiang ju tt i waited for so long.. acted by he jun xiang n yang chen lin.. heez. once i finish tis entry im gg to start on my VCD liao .. so happy! But den oso abit suay lah. i only got part 1.. tt means i can only watch eps 1 to 10.. so sad!! muz get part 2 sooon!! yeah. Finally something to brighten my day...

cold cold nite.. wed On LeaVe..!!!

Is a cold cold nite.. n im still not slping. Juz finish a phone call which lasted i tink at least 2 hrs? hhahaz poor thingy listen to me tok cok for the entire conversation. hahahz thks "didi"!!

Recently im so suay at work.. almost all my ADSL W.O. either got disputes, things to be resolved or rejected becos of some reasons lah..hurrr..so suay.. is not 1 or 2 lor. is like at least 4???? my goodness?!!! Lucky im leaving soon.. but i cant be tt irresponsible lah. hurr.. Other than tt other sales are alrite.

On Leave for today (wed)... but apparently no one is free to go out wif me!!! so sad.. ok lah. i'll to be an independant lady and settle everything and do all the things that need to be done by MYSELF!! yeah!! Hopefully uncle got the Drama i want.. den i can finally rent it back to watch! yippeee!!!

Im so bored so bored so bored. n alittle hungry.. duh. so late le. no supper lah. easy fat.
I shall juz go n slp. n tink of my bz schedule tml alone. bleah. Gotta get alot of things done tml.

yawnz.. gotta slp already..

Following the GamE!

In reply to Lyly's tag.. here it come..

Rules of the game:
1) post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.
2) At the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to this andleave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

5 weird/random stuffs about me:

1. I like BAd boys.. (eg..abit beng, got attitude, speaks vulgarity, smoke? hhhahhahhaz like wat jess says "nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai")
2. I go gaga over the main actor everytime i watch an au xiang ju/ drama(vcd) no matter is fr taiwan or korea.. (eg. he jun xiang, zheng yuan chang, RAIN...etc)
3. I cry everytime i watch au xiang ju/ drama( vcd). (those touching scenes...or those scenes that are extremely meaningful.. hmm sob ...)
4. Im very contradicting.. (eg. i go clubbing but i dun like ppl assuming im a chiongster. i like to be a sweetie pie yet i like to be classified as the wild child sometimes..)
5. I got a smelly pillow named "bao bao aka chou chou" that is wif me for as long as i could rem. ( i guess tat is no secret to anyone who noes me by now.. wahhahhaha)

The next 5 lucky people will be Cindy, Geri, Siew Luan, Mavis, Twinnie!

Meet up wif Ben Ben Jia Zu!!

IS Friday! oops now is 1235 already. Fri has officially passed.. keke. It was hrs ago when i meet up wif fellow ben ben jia zu members Rick kor and Geri! heez. Geri came at 730 to "jie wo xia ban". Bring her out to the prepaid rdshow to say HI to Rod n company. hahahhz the grp out there have been my pals recently cos i sneak out to tok to them whenever im free. Next we went SHOPPING while waiting for kor to rch PS!~ The gals favourite activity.."Little Match Gal" having SALES.. i bought a very "char char" skirt in baby blue. the Very me kinda skirt, geri says. hahahhz. N geri oso bough i tink a top and a bottom. yippee!~ shopping is so much fun!

Dinner was a treat by kor kor again! yeah. dun i juz love gg out wif him. wahhhz. yummy yummy jap food. act not tt yummy but i still manage to finish like 90% of the food and withnessing how my already round tummy getting bigger and rounder aft the full meal. wahhaz. im FAT!! i cant help it.. I juz have to eat!! bleahz.. Thks kor for the meal ( as usual) hhahaz.

Anyway i was crazy today when geri says she gg to work as I-mode promoter and she is stationed @ PS L1!!! Means im gg to see her like everyday for at least a mth! yeah!! i cant describe how happy i am to hear tt. hahahz one more ppl to go crazy crazy with me during work. heez. I can already imagine how fun it's gg to get yeah! Too bad rod gg army soon or else more fun. bleahz. I can feel the "ben ben crazy Ning" hype in me already. hahahz. like the craziness is abt to erupt. wahhahaz. *Grinz*

** Learnt a new word today ( all thks to Jackson :p) : shenanigan
Meaning: reckless or malicious behavior that causes discomfort or annoyance in others
Synonyms : mischief, devilment, mischief- making, mischievousness, deviltry, rascality, roguery, rouguishness**

Ah Gu is back as "Relief Manager"..hahahza so fun @ work!

Today Ah gu aka Daniel Tan.. hahhaz is back. cos the rest of the managers either having training or having their off day. So ah gu say he come n "ke chuan" for a day. heez. It feels like u noe when a class having relief teacher for a day.. hahahz is so much fun. Daniel doing his normal stupid stuffs like singing.. yup n burping... n constantly being teased n "suan" by us all. hahahz today is so much fun!!! Too bad i got alot of customers today plus tt toopid troublesome cust! bleah.. irritating! humpz. anyway today quite bz for a short period of time. Cos everyone seems to call at the same time...duh. Aft tt "peak period", den i slack as usual. heez..

ya.. dun tink i mention gg out wif Ness, angela, brendon n jiaxuan on tues to celebrate jiaxuan (belated) bday. heez. ate nydc and we walked ard alittle before heading home. Very long nv see 4e4 ppl already. Guess everyone is busy with their own lives and having fun. Hahhaz wat i mean is i see everyone happy with their current life and im glad for them ya. (",)

Back to the shop.. morale alittle bit low recently for a few of them. Maybe is the change of management. maybe is juz changes happening too fast recently.. im not really sure. It affects me little since im not directly under them but it's kinda sad to see how it used to be so lively laz time and alittle depressing recently. some are talking abt leaving..hmm. i mean me too but i got my own reason ma. bleahx. hope everyone cheers up!!! It's XMAS soon!! keke..my fav season in the yr!

~Prezzies prezzies prezzies.. glitter glitter glitter.. glamour glamour glamor.. stars stars stars..green green green...red red red..party party party..Happiness happiness happiness..santa santa santa..candy cane candy cane candy cane..smiles smiles smiles...~

Im waiting for XMAS!~

Lazy Mon, Boring Tues..

Monday...Blues.... initially..cos i broke my heels!~ duh. one of it lor.. so suay. is the 2nd pair of heels that needs repair. duh.. Ya,, n make yiwen bring me a pair of slipper but din expect her to bring an ugly pair of flip flop for me lor. hahhaz but have to thk her for bringing lah. So i survived walking ard wif a half broken heel. wahhaz IM super woman!~

Yst was Adrian laz day being the shop manager here so sad.. so i stayed til closing cos he's treating supper!~ slurpz.. heez bought lotsa food.. but as usual food is NV enuff!~ keke.. Will miss adrian for sure. he so nice to everyone. hai...

Another thing was i told my manager tt im quitting soon n gg back to study. Surprisingly, she is very supportive leh.. she say is better to cont to study since im still so young. So now is to find the time to type my resignation letter liao. hee heez..

Boring tues... blogging at work. keke

* who is paranoid? though there is a suspect but he denies. duh. im juz being curious...*

IM not OK..

Went dbl o laz ntie. drank too much i would say. Alittle high.. and crazy. I feel sick.. i feel like puking... i can still feel the alcohol inside my body tis morn when i wake up. duh... Im tired.. lack of slp.. that few hrs of slp and im off to prepare for work.. N dunno y today was quite bz from the start.. hai...dispute lah, customer call back lah.. follow up lah.etc.. sianz. N im feeling so damn cold in the pantry... am i getting sick already? I kept sniffing the medical oil to make myself feel better. hai.. y i like say until im so poor thing... bleah... im so weak.. cant even take a few more drinks. damn.. i think im gg to stop clubbing for awhile.. Too much drinking is bad for health..hahahz..

Arghhh..i can feel my head throbbing... my heart pounding....maybe im getting high blood pressure soon.. hahahz i muz be mad..

Can someone pls send me home????? yawnz... sigh...

A wk lacking of slp...temper running short

I did a really bad thing yst.. i flared up infront of boo's frens the 1st time in the 2 yrs i had been wif him.. Guess i was really pissed.. but nv was i tt pissed tt i will scream... cos is juz din feel right to do tt to them. Is not like cindy or kevin they all tt i can juz scream when im angry.. Its juz diff...I cant stand the way the fren was toking.. I wanted to type it all out.. but tinking twice.. since its over.. den juz let it go. Cos typing it down will make my blood boils again..And judging from the way im gg to write it..is not gonna be very nice and who ever who reads it might juz have the wrong perception of the situation. Act i feel guilty for flaring up... maybe im juz being too sensitive.. is not his fault entirely ya.. hai. I tink they r all stunned by my outburst, since they had nv seen this side of me before.. i swear its not gg to happen again..hai.. Simply said, its better to forget abt it.

This wk had been slack since there is 2 public holis.. both days contributed to boo.. went shopping with him for his prezzie. Took pics and ate Outback.. slurpz.. Rest of the wk has been alrite i guess.. juz doing a few follow up cases. Feeling sian again...work is juz work. Boring..

Wat im crazy over rite now is the korean drama "Full House".. Rain is so cute in the show.. same goes to Song hui qiao...Making me lose slp becos i cant help but keep watching the vcds until wee hours at nite. heez. Watching drama nv fails to make me feel all the mixed emotions and making me cry at all the right moments.. Life can nv be like the drama, am i right?

Anyway, anticipating for Wed ladies nite wif my gal frens.. Finally managed to date cindy out for a clubbing session. but for some reason. it juz feel weird cos there r no guys gg wif us.. erm.. is there any guys we noe tt haven report to the army tt we can call along? I mean we alway go in a grp wif mixture of guys n gals. hmmm.. a gals nite out.. Juz hope i dun get too drunk tt nite. or else gotta call rick kor to come pick me up le. if not no one else to call liao since boo,kev n twinnie all in army. bleah.

* waiting for the clock to strike 12 so i can watch my vcds... i noe im gg to cry tonite..*