Farewell... New Year....

Date:29th Dec ( Thurs)
Occasion:My Farewell & Ben's Bday's Celebration
Venue: Party World Orchard

Had so much fun on thurs!~!~ Basically is ONE BIG Grp of us in ONE BIG ROOm. hahahz in fact we changed alot of rooms. INitially, only got me, weijie, nicole, andy cos we are either having opening shift or having off day. heez so meet up aft 730 to get Ben's bday pressie. Den Meiyi and thomas came to join us. Off we go to ktv first with a small room and waiting for the rest to come from the shop. Once they come den move to BIG BIG room liao so shuang. N u cannot imagine the no of jugs of beer we ordered!~ all in all we had so much funn til we left at 5plus. Drunk and all.. U can see everyone drunk and doing crazy crazy things tgt. Im sure I'll miss the peeps..sob sob... so emo...
HUGZ HUGZ to everyone who went that day ya.

Anyway, i juz bought my Sony Ericsson 520i grey yst ok lah i noe white nicer but u noe i sure dirty it one. If sony ercisson shop got sell the white cover i might consider getting it ya. hahahz. but i abit toopid leh dun really noe how to use the phone. heez. figuring out. keke...

Lastly, My new year Resolutions for 2006!~

• Club Less
• Study hard in SIM
• Dun make my parents upset
• Earn more money
• Learn to take care of myself more
• Act like 21!~ ( gg to be 21 next yr yeah!~)
• actually like nuttin much to add leh... all in all...
• BE A GD GAL!~ GD GAGA!~

May all my friends have a HAPPY NEW YR!~ Love u all. hugz.

I got RED HaiR!

Hhahaz i went to dyed and highlighted my hair! RED!!! hahahz i tink damn nice lor. hahahz Went wif my mummy dearest to do a makeover for our hair! yippee. my mummy more havoc lor. she dyed brown with blond highlight. hahahaz. she say she got white hair growing out so blond highlight will camouflage her white hair!! hahha my mummy so CUTEz! hahahz I love my new hair!!! heez CRAZY CRAZY..

TMl gonna be crazy crazy oso. Celebrating Ah Ben's bday and my farewell party!! PartY party!! KTV session..,sponsored by desmond (cos he has the vouchers) heez. den me n ben will top up the rest ba. anyway, so sad gg to leave the PS gang already. Plus there will be reshufflement of staffs agian. next time i go back PS find them oso dunno if they still working @ PS outlet anot. pout.. so sad. But dun care tml muz hAf FUN!! heez. KTV til weeeeee.... hrs.... hahhahz. Keke!!
Im so excited! muz borrow camera fr ah hong n take lotsa pics ya!!heez

* thks to the someone who bought me the CD tt i wanted for a long time. heez. Love the Xmas prezzie*

Xmas Eve & Xmas!

Xmas Eve

Went to work like a normal sat.. hahaz reserved a set of Sony ericsson 520i & the free bluetooth headset so tt when i go back to work on Wed i can buy my new hp!! heez. Its only $88!!! wahahhz. Aft work went to Lydia's hse to have gift exchange.. heez. prezzies prezzies.. N have a heart to heart session oso. I felt close to them tt day.. haven had tt kind of feeling for a long long time these years...No longer the uncomfortable, i juz want to msg someone feeling. More soothing, and comfortable juz like laz time. Maybe becos of teh heart to heart tok ba. heez. Hope it wont be a one time thing. Realised tt alot of stuffs that happened in our life, we din tell each other abt them.. So in actual fact, we r not TT close as it seems...Well, at least we r working on it.
While Ness, lyd,colin n bren went for some church magic show. Me, Val n jo went for dinner n shop alittle in Orchard. Bought Boo a adidas tee. Went to TCC to meet up with them aft they r done and we hang out til 1 plus. * fun but tired*

Xmas Day

Meet up with Boo ( im not used to call him Yingyi lah) to watch Narnia( very nice show!!) @ cineleisure and our little gift exchange. I noe all of u might think its weird but act not very awkward leh. hahahhaz. Maybe the first moment lah. but in the end alrite lor. Its like gg out with a gd old fren. something like gg out wif twinnie or kev? very comfortable.Tok to him abt wat happened lately etc etc. Asked him abt kel they all..etc heez. NO matter wat status he carries he will still be BOO. No other ppl can replace him as boo lah. Even when everything is in the past, everyone will have a special something in ur heart with a tag stating how diff tt person is. Im so glad we r still gd frens. Someone i could still hang out with. Thanks BOo!!! I love the present! A hangbag from Little Match Girl. Maybe a little something is tugging at my heart when i tink of the past. hahahz. But im still pretty sure i dun want commitment. Maybe for now im very contented with wat i have. Like i say in my many prev entries. Im gg to clean up my act and start brand new for the yr 2006. Anything can happen.. let's juz hope its gd things tat is coming up. *smilez* It's feels gd to see Boo again today...Hhahaz kinda miss him aft seeing him. ahahhaz nv see nv miss, see liao kinda got the feeling. hhahahz.. anyway, gd to have him as a gd fren! hugz..

Merry Christmas my Frens!! ( oops or is it aft 12 already when i type tis post?)

* The game shall end on 31th.We gotta follows the rules of the game. I had made up my mind.*

Xmas... & tis yr happenings..

Went back to Cup office for my dept's x,as celebration. Heez Gotten a "mouse & cheese" paperclip holder. hahahz.N im so lucky! i got 4th prize in the lucky draw- a Clinique make up palette. Had a mini gift exchange with my groupie @work. A tube top fr Meiyi, A cute keychain fr Nat, and one exchange gift -body shop gift set fr Jackson. So i got gifts fr everyone fr the grp!~ heez so happy. Hope they like my presents too. I noe jackson definitely like the one i bought for him. wahhahahz.. Gg to miss these ppl.. and those at the shop aft i left.sob sob.

Looking at Cindy's blog.. she wrote abt wat happened tis past yr... tot i could write so too. hahahz here i go....YEAR 2005....

Clubbing...

• Started gg very often ever since i start working...
• puked 8 times on my bday @ Chinablack
• DBL O become my fav club recently
• Photowhoring session everytime we club...
• Snogging become a fav activity too.
• cindy becomes very guai liao, n the regulars are liangjie and jess.

Love Life...

• Ended a 2 yrs relationship.. Im sorry boo... xie xie ni zhe yang de ai wo
• My F****, pls dun fall for me.
• Sugar D who crosses the line slightly
• i still dunno wat i want.. simply.. messy...
• no commitment..

Work/ SchooL...

• 1st full time job aft i graduated with my Business Studies Diploma
• Enjoyed the 6 mths @ PS, though there r times tt im VerY Stressed Up and when i Screwed up Big Time...
• Glad tt i made losta gd frens/colleagues: meiyi, nat,jackson, yiwen,lynette,sophia,long, ah ben, thomas, ray.lin lee,shiling...etc etc.e tc.. and all those i din name.. alot lah.
• Gg back to sch-SIM with ting n ah hong.. Cindy @ Monash already...

Friends...

• Thank you for all those tt is worried for me during this few wks.. Sorry to make u all worried so much for me.
• Ting, hope u n ym can get pass the barrier and hope both ur love will strengthen
• Cindy, Kel is very nice wor..n at his age... u might want to tink further..
• Kev, So glad tt u r so xin fu now.. treat her well ya. she is worth it
• Twinnie, stop being AS okay... N get urself a pretty n nice nice gdgd gaL tt can laz!~
• Zf, since its over, glad tt it had happened n move on..
• Jess, take care in Aussie soon ya. Will miss u lots~ tell me if u get urself an ang mo bf!!
• Val,lyd,kaiyin, ness, thks for having a plan to make us closer than how we r now. since we all noe we r drifting apart... hope we could help each other with our probs and meet up more often, ya.

Merry Xmas!~!~!~

Awaiting for the start of a new yr.. a new beginning.. a new environment.. a new me (probably?)

Bring Me Back the NinG i noe before...

Pls everyone save me! Bring me back the NinG i noe before.. Pls dun let me club or go out late anymore.. Enuf all wild-ness and fun n laughters liao. Sch gg to start in Jan.. Time to be a gd gal n do the right thing.... No more wild child. mum's upset already.

Sorry Mummy.. I really dun mean to make u so upset..
Sorry i made u cry and make u worried,
I promised to be gd k..
I'll be a gd gal....
U have to trust me.. Trust that i din do anything wrong.
Or anything u din approved of..
I love u mummy..

I guess i "lost" 2 persons becos of things i had done recently. Cant help thinking if boo is still ard n pull the strings n control my constant playing.. things wont be so much the same as now. Maybe its all fated ba. Have to go thru this phase of life.. Maybe is time for me to learn n grow up. A test maybe? I guess i failed.. so is time to clean up my act and make sure i "score" better in the next one..

The GaMe is gg to be over on 31 Dec. Shld i be glad or sad?

** thks NoNo for the free invites to MOS on fri 16/12.. The place is quite cool sia.. we managed to skip the queuing at the last part n juz went in with our invites! hahhaz. The place damn big! hhahaz. But then like wat jess says the drinks super diluted.. no kick at all. bleah. hahaz.

Sian-ness & Suayest @ work...

Recently, luck is running out for me. I am SUPER DUPER SUAY... I tink ever since last mon, i got 3 cases that have to do master reset for the phones cos customers changed their mind @ the cashier!~ damn!!!! Grrrr... DEn i got 1 dispute customer some more.. hai... Want to complain complain complain.. phone no stock only ma.. complain so much.. grrr.. n at the 1st visit the cust din tell me when he coming down to buy the phone anot lor. Grr... damn. i hope the phone coming in today evening, and hope he would be coming down tml cos IM ON LEAVE TML!~ Gg SIM for enrolment and briefing.. yippe!~!~!~ Den i wont have to serve him @ all. hahahhz. I noe tt is being very irresponsible but oh well.. i dun wan him to spoil my OFF DAY! grr. Getting very pissed off easily at work. i dunno y oso. PMS lah. bleah. cust seems to be so irritating recently. BIte them. hahahz. Maybe becos is my laz few wks already, so im getting very sian very restless, very unwilling to work. Oh man. im such a bad person. hai. But i actually want to leave the company early by using my AL to offset the remaining days one hor. save all the trouble.. all the sianess. but my manager says she needs my help den ok lor. since i got nuttin much to do anyway. I dun like the work. but i like the ppl here. Chatting away in the pantry, laughing loudly, "koop" ppl's fries..."suan" ppl,hai.. i will miss all of them sia. Having stayed at PSL1 for nearly 6 mths.. all the fun & laughters.. Definitely miss those ppl whom i joke ard wif and will called them out to go KTV!~ or Supper! heez. Me and Ah Ben are planning something since his bday is 30/12. Hmmm.. FUN FUN FUN in the air!~

* waiting for tml to come!~ Fri Yeah!

apologies, confessions... n more.

10 Dec (Sat): WaLa....(LisA's BdaY)
im drunk AGAIN.. laz nite. Tis seems to be happening very often recently. very unhealthy very abnormal. hai.. i hope i din spoil the nite for lisa. Happy Birthday GaL!! muacks!
Sorry sorry sorry... for those whom are concern abt me. I made a mess out of myself again.. i noe all of u are worried.. thks so much for always being there for me.. i noe even if im drunk or watever im in.. i have u all taking care of me no matter wat.. gosh. im getting teary..
Thks.. peeps. kev, cindy(not there yst),yanting(din go wala), jess,lyly, vinod,nono,zhifeng,liangjie,lisa, these ppl whom make my poly life so wonderful.. Been thru all the shit wif me.. fr my 1st bf, 1st breakup, orientation, bbqs, chalets wif alcoholic drinks, wild dog chase during cycling, 2nd bf, 2nd break up, new crushes, flings, emails during work, clubbing sessions, photowhoring, pubbing sessions....and so much more. u all had been there wif me one way or another. gosh im getting emotional. pls bear wif me. i guess i need to pour things out on my blog ahhahahaz. u all r the bez pals anyone could have ya. * HuGz* n not to forgot lionel my beloved twinnie! who came into my life in yr 3. n Rick kor kor and geri oso in yr 3. muacks.
I tink im getting worried abt myself too. had small tok wif my mum juz now. ya. u all shld noe my mum is like a fren to me, we r pretty open abt stuffs. Tis time rd, i kept alot fr her, cos i din noe how to face her. She dotes on boo alot. Probably even tink he's the ONE for me. Cos she could see how much love he is giving me. and how gd a guy he is. I tink i kinda disappoint her. though she din exactly say out the words. She say she would let me "play" til xmas.which means before sch start. til the end of dec i could have my share of fun. But once sch starts, i cant try to be funny anymore. i promised her tt i would be gd. She said she dun understand y i let go of such a gd relationship, n y i din cherish it. man.. my heart hurts... n of cos some other things she said. i noe she's worried. can u imagine ur little gal coming home @ wee hrs ..every wk at least once??!!
I would really wish to tell her im sorry.. i made her worried. She kinda say i changed too. n she dun like the way im now. i felt tt i had let her down. sigh... I really have to straighten my life... clear the messes.. be the NinG u all r familiar wif and not worried abt. I hope a new start in a new sch, new environment would be a brightening of things.

Wow.. wat a long entry. at least i said all i gotta say for the past wk events. thks peeps for being ard! hugz.

Pull me out of the dream i weaved

i noe i made alot of ppl worried abt me
i noe i made mistakes tt is nearly unforgive-able recently
i feel blessed tt frens are ard whenever i need them
i noe im being a fool and enjoying being one
until now i decided i have to stop playing
slap myself and wake myself up to reality
pull me out of the dream i weaved
let me feel the hurt tt cut deep into me again
so tt i could wake up fr tis dream
find me the girl tt i knew long ago
let her find a chance to cry thoroughly enuf
to wash away her sin and her guilt.
to make her vision clearer

Life goes on... if u had seen me recently you might even tink im too normal. im as the usual me on the outside. but the me inside is corroding....wake me up! pull me out!

Im the worst person on earth..

I noe i did the worst thing in my entire 20 yrs of life..
i broke someone's heart.....
Frens have been telling me how "ke xi" for tis relationship to end like this.
some even feel sad for us..
the situation isnt being fair to any one
it isnt up to our control
i feel like the worst person on earth
dun even deserve the concern that some of u all have given me.
tears fall whenever i hear yang cheng lin's " li xiang qing ren" on radio..
the radio was playing tis song tt nite when we were toking abt it
maybe i really dun deserve the love he gave me.
maybe he could find a much better gal than me (definitely)
i had chosen a lonely xmas tis yr.

It's final...

Decision made. It's final..
Thank u for being there always..
Thank u for the love given..
i understand tt it's a choice made by myself.
i would be strong...n learn to be independant.
Maybe i need to be alone. maybe i need frens.
Maybe its the bez for both of us.
happy times r always in memories..
call me stubborn.. call me playful, selfish, foolish...
i dun need comments from others anymore.
becos if its meant to be, its meant to be.

* dui bu qi, xie xie ni zhe yang de ai wo*