apologies, confessions... n more.
10 Dec (Sat): WaLa....(LisA's BdaY)
im drunk AGAIN.. laz nite. Tis seems to be happening very often recently. very unhealthy very abnormal. hai.. i hope i din spoil the nite for lisa. Happy Birthday GaL!! muacks!
Sorry sorry sorry... for those whom are concern abt me. I made a mess out of myself again.. i noe all of u are worried.. thks so much for always being there for me.. i noe even if im drunk or watever im in.. i have u all taking care of me no matter wat.. gosh. im getting teary..
Thks.. peeps. kev, cindy(not there yst),yanting(din go wala), jess,lyly, vinod,nono,zhifeng,liangjie,lisa, these ppl whom make my poly life so wonderful.. Been thru all the shit wif me.. fr my 1st bf, 1st breakup, orientation, bbqs, chalets wif alcoholic drinks, wild dog chase during cycling, 2nd bf, 2nd break up, new crushes, flings, emails during work, clubbing sessions, photowhoring, pubbing sessions....and so much more. u all had been there wif me one way or another. gosh im getting emotional. pls bear wif me. i guess i need to pour things out on my blog ahhahahaz. u all r the bez pals anyone could have ya. * HuGz* n not to forgot lionel my beloved twinnie! who came into my life in yr 3. n Rick kor kor and geri oso in yr 3. muacks.
I tink im getting worried abt myself too. had small tok wif my mum juz now. ya. u all shld noe my mum is like a fren to me, we r pretty open abt stuffs. Tis time rd, i kept alot fr her, cos i din noe how to face her. She dotes on boo alot. Probably even tink he's the ONE for me. Cos she could see how much love he is giving me. and how gd a guy he is. I tink i kinda disappoint her. though she din exactly say out the words. She say she would let me "play" til xmas.which means before sch start. til the end of dec i could have my share of fun. But once sch starts, i cant try to be funny anymore. i promised her tt i would be gd. She said she dun understand y i let go of such a gd relationship, n y i din cherish it. man.. my heart hurts... n of cos some other things she said. i noe she's worried. can u imagine ur little gal coming home @ wee hrs ..every wk at least once??!!
I would really wish to tell her im sorry.. i made her worried. She kinda say i changed too. n she dun like the way im now. i felt tt i had let her down. sigh... I really have to straighten my life... clear the messes.. be the NinG u all r familiar wif and not worried abt. I hope a new start in a new sch, new environment would be a brightening of things.
Wow.. wat a long entry. at least i said all i gotta say for the past wk events. thks peeps for being ard! hugz.
im drunk AGAIN.. laz nite. Tis seems to be happening very often recently. very unhealthy very abnormal. hai.. i hope i din spoil the nite for lisa. Happy Birthday GaL!! muacks!
Sorry sorry sorry... for those whom are concern abt me. I made a mess out of myself again.. i noe all of u are worried.. thks so much for always being there for me.. i noe even if im drunk or watever im in.. i have u all taking care of me no matter wat.. gosh. im getting teary..
Thks.. peeps. kev, cindy(not there yst),yanting(din go wala), jess,lyly, vinod,nono,zhifeng,liangjie,lisa, these ppl whom make my poly life so wonderful.. Been thru all the shit wif me.. fr my 1st bf, 1st breakup, orientation, bbqs, chalets wif alcoholic drinks, wild dog chase during cycling, 2nd bf, 2nd break up, new crushes, flings, emails during work, clubbing sessions, photowhoring, pubbing sessions....and so much more. u all had been there wif me one way or another. gosh im getting emotional. pls bear wif me. i guess i need to pour things out on my blog ahhahahaz. u all r the bez pals anyone could have ya. * HuGz* n not to forgot lionel my beloved twinnie! who came into my life in yr 3. n Rick kor kor and geri oso in yr 3. muacks.
I tink im getting worried abt myself too. had small tok wif my mum juz now. ya. u all shld noe my mum is like a fren to me, we r pretty open abt stuffs. Tis time rd, i kept alot fr her, cos i din noe how to face her. She dotes on boo alot. Probably even tink he's the ONE for me. Cos she could see how much love he is giving me. and how gd a guy he is. I tink i kinda disappoint her. though she din exactly say out the words. She say she would let me "play" til xmas.which means before sch start. til the end of dec i could have my share of fun. But once sch starts, i cant try to be funny anymore. i promised her tt i would be gd. She said she dun understand y i let go of such a gd relationship, n y i din cherish it. man.. my heart hurts... n of cos some other things she said. i noe she's worried. can u imagine ur little gal coming home @ wee hrs ..every wk at least once??!!
I would really wish to tell her im sorry.. i made her worried. She kinda say i changed too. n she dun like the way im now. i felt tt i had let her down. sigh... I really have to straighten my life... clear the messes.. be the NinG u all r familiar wif and not worried abt. I hope a new start in a new sch, new environment would be a brightening of things.
Wow.. wat a long entry. at least i said all i gotta say for the past wk events. thks peeps for being ard! hugz.
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