Im StRonGeR than YsT! ( i hope)

Im still doing ER assignment!!! oh my god.. my pts are all jumble up i hope i dun get out of pt.bleahx.. its due tml!! Pts Pts Pts.. i still have so many pts dunno where i shld put it under. sobz. Anyway, i have assignments to put my mind busy these few days. Feeling better already wahhahaz though i still misses both of them.i gotta keep sadness in the bottom of my heart....But oh well.. IM JIAN NING!! how can i be not cheery.. duh.. Sadness cant change to gold.. someone told me tt before.. cant help missing him.. sometimes i wonder do i hate him for doing all these. i noe is for my own gd.. but still. grrrrr.. i wonder at times if i nv meet him in my life. will my life be better? gosh.. i miss him. i hate him. i gotta pick myself up aft a few falls, bruises n scars to be seen as evidences.Does he see the bruises n scars? n how abt the bruises n scars i inflict on boo.. IM stronger than yst!!! (i hope..)

ok back to doing ER.. bleahx.