happy birthday to me~

Happy Birthday to me!~ Thk u all for attending my bday party laz sat! Really appreciate it. I LuV all the prezzies i received!!! HOpe u all had enjoyed urself despite the fact that im not a very gd host. heezz..Im finally 21~~ Actually not much of a diff fr 20..juz tt i realised im still so childish,impulsive, temperamental, emotional, whiny and most of the time stupid!

Guess today is the 1st day of maturity.. muz start being MATURE.. a big word for me to act on. HOw long have i stop being mature? half a yr? 1 yr? ever since how long ago, tis word had drifted too far for me to grab on. Im really sorry that i disappoint some of my closest frens and my boo becos of some of my actions.. REally sorry. I noe u guys are the bez. The ones tt noe me best too. Promise me next time stop me when im starting to get drunk and doing stupid things k. I always feel tt life is unfair and i dun have enuf ppl to love me enuf compared to the rest. N now reflecting on the past, i realised alot of ppl had loved me for who i am. Luv me too much tt these ppl dun even scold me when i do things wrong. Luv me so much tt had always been so forgiving to me. I shld stop having the mentality tt i muz have alot of frens, instead i shld cherish those really gd ones rite? I luv u all. thks for always been there for me.. These ppl are MY BOO! muacks, twinnie, yanting,valarie,lydia,yingda, yiwen, geri and rick. N of cos my family!!!! There are so much things i wanted to say but duno how to put it in words. Anyway, thks for all those who had helped me alot for the chalet..THANK YOU!~

BIG MUACKS to my BOO!!! Always there for me and helping me alot for the chalet. Luv ya always!!~ My bday wish is to be the mature gf u want me to be. *hugz & kisses*














*all my prezzies!!! Luv them all~














My Bday Cake!~















This is my HaPpY FaMiLy!!!














Lovely flowers from my Boo!















Me, My boo and his bros!!! Super touched tt they came! thks!















My boo & I~



P/s: he's juz a fren.. i tink i had make a mistake by inviting him but he is really juz a fren tt had left some gd memories behind tat's all.

bday coming soon...& unhappiness

I hope my wishlist isnt tt hard to be fulfilled... hahhaz i can see most of the items have been taken care of...hahhaz my adidas jacket.. guess wallet.. makeup palette....hmmm is gd to have a wishlist. for those who dun want to buy the same items as others pls TAG like the rest do!!! thks ya... i dun mind clothes.. u noe.. gals nv reject clothes and vouchers if u really cant find anything to buy.. hahhaz

Anyway, im happy as long as most ppl can make it for the chalet and wont complain tt its too far away, or tt the food is not enuf or not gd enuf.... I guess ultimately i want to be a gd host more than anything,. i want everyone to be happy n enjoy,.. wierld rite. and im supposed to be the birthday gal. At least if im a gd host i wont feel like im such a failure.. at least if the party is a success i would assume im a person of 21 years old who have lots of frens who really cares, at least if its successful i wont feel like im inferior to the rest of the "21"sssss.... or at least ppl do give a damn to wat i do and love me for being juz me........ its not juz the present... but the Presence that is important... hahaz feeling guilty becos i sometimes din attend bday parties too.. n im expecting the attendances fr everyone else. duh.

Small little fact..i was watching Ch U n there is this talk show "Shoot" hosted by desmond koh and quan yi feng, anyway they always have interesting topics to be discussed. Today's topic was why are singaporean getting harder to attain happiness? Do u noe tt singapore rank 2nd in being the least happy country. Guess life is getting more complicated til sometimes we get lost in our preceived world and forgot abt simple pleasure in life.. We constantly want more from life once we attain something.. we wanted another level of something else or the same thing. Is nv enuf.... is nv gd enuf compared to someone who have more or attain more.. Why has life become so materialize? or hmm goal oriented? or competitive.. it become so in built in us already.. hmm i guess im guilty of being one of the ppl who nv feel tt wat i do is enuf... Life is Unfair. it always is. and always will. it's nv gg to be enuf to a certain extent. the society as a whole had make us more complicated and unhappy... its sad to noe tt singpore being developed and the ppl living in it are all unhappy...

Life is short.. so muz learn to cherish ppl, things, or stuffs that is worthwhile.

My BDay WishList!

Yes.. 2 more wks is my bday already! Act oso not tt excited.. cos im afraid if im tooooooooo excited i'll be very disappointed if everything dun appear to be wat i expected on the actual day. So peeps, make sure u are free on 29th July k.. Pasir Ris HomeTeamNS... near pasir ris park. Take bus 403. Theme: summer.. means u can wear bright colours, and flip flops and berms and shorts etc ya. keke. yes yes.. baileys, vodka, chivas, beers.... mahjong... enuf? & bbq food! yada yada.., all bday chalets are basically the same lah. so is u ppl who are gg to make it more enjoyable ya. N stay overnite hor.. i got enuf bedrooms!!! So stay!!! Its too woo loo to go back home anyway might as well stay and keep me company. wahhahaz. okay.. here come my wishlist...(randomly numbered..)

1. Adidas Jacket! ( but im not sure if twinnie had gotten tis for me fr tw..hmm chk wif him ya?)
2. Capris, pedder pusher or shorts ( any of these for me to wear to sch ya. (",) )
3. Red Earth Bird of Paradise make up palette ( i tink my uni frens getting me tis ya)
4. Lovely by Sarah Jessica Parker OR Love @ First Glow by J.Lo
5. Bag!~
6. Guess or DKNY wallet??...hmmm
7. Hmm a watch ?
8. Vouchers??

I'll add in anything else if i tot of it ya. hwaahhz................

Im Sorry im so Grouchy!

Im really really sorry for those who had tolerated my nonsense and grouchy-ness for the past 2 days... Seriously there is no particular reasons for them.hmmm. Nope its not PMS.. tat's y its so irritating..duh... U noe the feeling of damn "low-ness"... Like everything goes wrong and is like the whole world is against u.. Grrr... I guess im insecure.. and inferior complexity... I felt like im like the worst being on earth.. Like looking in the mirror and u noe u r ugly. N gg to sch and knowing u r not the "distinction" calibre.. and looking in ur wallet and realise u r pertually POOR... n ur job is so unstable.. N y sometimes i juz cant squeeze out anymore creative juices for my design of accessories.. How frustrating!!! Yes that is my life.. i noe Im mad! or emotionally unstable.. im aLways like tt. cant help it.
I was juz saying how wonderful my life is in one of the previous entry and now im feeling so rotten abt ... MY LIFE.. Grouchy.. grouchy.. Very.. Im Sorry! But the feeling juz stayed.. grr. Ok at least today i felt better already. Its almost like a flu.. u feel so bad so sick for a few days and miracly u feel better aft medication or aft some rest. *sigh*.. i'll get better i promise!

Realised i wasnt tt "friendly" or eager to meet new ppl in SIM. Not like in NP where i joined so many camps and stuffs.. Now is juz gg sch for lessons. Full stop. Pretty sad ya. hmmm.. adopted the heck care attitude.. i juz pretty dun care abt much stuffs abt other ppl, juz only concern wif my own circle of frens.. Hmm so unlike laz time. Maybe when a person gets older u juz dun want to initiate and make frens anymore??? hmmmm... Im juz being wierld. hurr.. Hope tml go out wif twinnie will cheer me up. I dunno y i so grouchy either.. I dun want to feel so grouchy too. The feeling juz SUX.. grrr. No worries gals, I promise i'll get better by next wk in sch.

I need hugs!!! lotsa lotsa them and comforting alcoholic drinks!

A bad bad day...

Yst was fun.. today was not. Went gathering with the luvcambodia trip peeps. Not exactly successful since not everyone managed to turn up. But well at least we still make the effort to go n have a nice dinner tgt wif ah leow! keke. Sylus is back. graduating and coming back to spore already. Whoa.., 2 yrs passed so fast. Like he wasnt really in aust for tt long ... ahhahz with advanced technology.. tokin to him online on msn make it seems like he wasnt really in aust. hahahz. Anyway, finally went New Asia Bar wif cindy n sylus laz nite. Yes yes. like since yr3 cindy say want to bring me there til now den really did it. duh. Nice place.. spectacular view... n wah so HIGH up! n becos its a tues nite, less crowd, we managed to get a nice table n great seats. Near the panel window! Can admire the view u noe! Carlton is like juz "there"!! hahahahz okok. im being too mad.

Skip to today.. Bad bad day.. Morn stomachache, feeling bloated. Den i was late for sch becos it was raining and there was a traffic jam. Damn!!! Severly lack of slp cos was uploading stuffs n preparing for summerbloomz new webbie. Grrr. den was the grping thingy tt was finally solved at the end of the day. Cust was late for the meet up.. n i have to queue up n post the items at the post office.. All in a day work.duh. I wore tis tee tt i like so much!!! Ok peeps, next time if u see me in a tee tt says "Be careful! i juz ate bitchy for breakfast!" n u better take the hint n dun come pissed me off. hahhaz unless tt day i was clearly trying to be cheeky... (safer to take the hint i would say.) whahahz.

Feeling better than in the day aft seeing the new summerbloomz webbie being such a SUCCESS!! At least my day ends well. I was so fed up tt i was practically snapping @ everyone who steps on my tail. Sorry gals (i mean those who see me in SIM,ya).. bad hair day.. and oso my dearest family.. Juz another NIng's emotional bad hair day. Boo HOO.. bleahx.

I was on my way home today n there was so much things on my mind tt i want to blog abt. But everytime when i really start blogging.. it juz "disappear".. grrr. how irritating.. Ya like i duno im someone who is a natural born whiny,irritating, emotional, bitchy flirt. hahahahz It's like so TRUE rite..im not being proud abt it but but but,, tat's me hahahahz at least i dun try to deny it rite. hahahz esp the bitchy n flirt part. hwahahz Cindy would be laughing n nodding her head while reading. keke.

Okayokay.. gotta go. Chk out the new summerbloomz webbie. Its in my links. N i'll find time to post my wishlist by tis wk k. =)

Upload..

Spent the whole day uploading and editing pictures for the new summerbloomz webbie. My photo taking skills and photo shop skills improved already!! yeah yeah! I juz now the basics lah.., as long as my pictures look nice can liao. wahhahz. So excited.. by Wed the new webbie will be up n running!! (",) Tml i still got some more pics to be taken n uploaded.. Den off to meet Cindy and the rest of the lovecambodia peeps. A long time since i laz saw the few of them already. Bro Sylus is back fr aust!!

hmm Bday coming!! And i still got lotsa stuffs haven prepare yet.. like my items list, my guest bk, my decor, and watever things needed for a bbq party. my goodness! Everytime bbq oso not i prepare one lor. hwhhaz n haven choose my cake.. duh. so many things to be done!

Pls tell me if u all r coming anot k. RSVP!! tag me, msg me, msn me or something!!! N some of u all r waiting for my wishlist rite.. eh.. wait for me got time den i put under the "myself" section k.. heez

*yawnz*

yst was fun. today is boredom.

Had a great time wif lyly yst! We went sentosa to try their new attraction the LUGE Ride and Sky Ride!!! Its super duper FUN!!! keke. N of cos aft the rides, we are off to the beach for some suntanning. Yst weather was gorgeous! The sun, sand and sea.. plus the breeze~ Aft a fun-filled afternoon, we cont to pamper ourselves. Tis time yanting joined us aft her work. Went PS for dinner den off we went to do manicures or pedicures to make our nails pretty! Wat a wonderful day! Waiting for pics fr lyly to show! keke.

Today was a big constrast to yst. Super boring. Spent the whole damn day slacking ard, online, watch tv, laze and napping.. Wat a blue blue sat.. Duh..Im off to do my own stuffs for now to ocuupy myself.

Twinnie coming back tonite! whoo hoo!

Impromtu..sian-ness

I am so suay.. Watever i org for the past 2 wks doesnt go really well.. hurr.. ok nvm. juz suayness.. So no matter im bend on gg Sentosa for a suntan tis fri!!! i dun care. Lyly pls dun bluff me.. n hopefully dear kev comes along too and jess. Tis activity dun need alot of ppl so shld be successful rite? Cos clubbing and late nite ktv i tink very few ppl go like super duh.. hmmm tat's my way of thinking lah. hmmm. suntan dun need alot of ppl one. im happy wif juz 2 or 3 person including myself. Juz want laze ard n lie under the sun n get a nice nice tan! * starting to dream* hahhaz.

Holiday is over.. is a new sch term AGAIN.. hmm.. getting ready for projects. I hope everything goes on fine tis sem. *smilez* Receive a msg fr my toopid twinnie today! So glad tt he's enjoying himself in taiwan.. keke.. Watched "superman" today... abit lame leh.. Y isnt he with the gal he loves and the child tt is his??? hmmm...

Random random tots.. n more random tots.. im so in love with tis guy in tis ou xiang ju called " lue guang sheng ling". He is Ruan Jing Tian.. Ethan.. Arghhh his name in the show is Owen..the violinist. So super duper de shuai..!!! The one tt wants to protect his angel (the gal) but isnt the gal's prince.. awww.. so sad.. He is gd fren wif my other 2 fav guys in taiwan ou xiang ju , joe zheng yuan chang and mike he jun xiang. Hai dont i juz love taiwan men! keke..

No free drinks is okay but give me the sun and the beach ~~~!!!

Life Is Good!~

Tis da no depressing entry! Cos Life is Good!~ keke.. hahahhaz. feeling high~ nope, not becos i have any alcohol intake for the day. hhahaz juz plain happy! Spent the whole day wif my twinnie yst, walking ard n shopping @ orchard. Twinnie better be gd in taiwan K! DUn be naughty there ya!~ hahahz. Went ting's hse tis morn to learn how to manage summerbloomz's upcoming new webbie. We r gg to move to a domain and not using blogspot anymore. so cool rite!!!~ yupz. Aft tt Meet up wif Jess(missed u gal!), lyly, lisa,zf and kev at orchard for a late lunch den home sweet home for dinner. Planning more meet ups as jess is back for a vacation. Gonna club wif tt gal man. Miss clubbing wif her!

Told u.. life is good.. hahahz tat's wat i can comment for now. Simple bliss in everyday life. I have GreAt frens ppl who love me for who i am and wat i do, i got a nice online shop thingy with one of my bezest pal, studying isnt much of a prob, i got a perm part time job , i got NO fling attached, NO unhealthy clubbing, NO careless drinking, i got places to chill & drink and ppl to go wif, i got great family tt love & dotes on me, i got my 21st bday coming up!~ GOsh i love my life! hahahhaz ( i have my depressing moments in tons of my entries so i tink i shld have one "love myself n my life entry too!~)

Gotta do my own stuffs now. TaTa!~