Im Sorry im so Grouchy!

Im really really sorry for those who had tolerated my nonsense and grouchy-ness for the past 2 days... Seriously there is no particular reasons for them.hmmm. Nope its not PMS.. tat's y its so irritating..duh... U noe the feeling of damn "low-ness"... Like everything goes wrong and is like the whole world is against u.. Grrr... I guess im insecure.. and inferior complexity... I felt like im like the worst being on earth.. Like looking in the mirror and u noe u r ugly. N gg to sch and knowing u r not the "distinction" calibre.. and looking in ur wallet and realise u r pertually POOR... n ur job is so unstable.. N y sometimes i juz cant squeeze out anymore creative juices for my design of accessories.. How frustrating!!! Yes that is my life.. i noe Im mad! or emotionally unstable.. im aLways like tt. cant help it.
I was juz saying how wonderful my life is in one of the previous entry and now im feeling so rotten abt ... MY LIFE.. Grouchy.. grouchy.. Very.. Im Sorry! But the feeling juz stayed.. grr. Ok at least today i felt better already. Its almost like a flu.. u feel so bad so sick for a few days and miracly u feel better aft medication or aft some rest. *sigh*.. i'll get better i promise!

Realised i wasnt tt "friendly" or eager to meet new ppl in SIM. Not like in NP where i joined so many camps and stuffs.. Now is juz gg sch for lessons. Full stop. Pretty sad ya. hmmm.. adopted the heck care attitude.. i juz pretty dun care abt much stuffs abt other ppl, juz only concern wif my own circle of frens.. Hmm so unlike laz time. Maybe when a person gets older u juz dun want to initiate and make frens anymore??? hmmmm... Im juz being wierld. hurr.. Hope tml go out wif twinnie will cheer me up. I dunno y i so grouchy either.. I dun want to feel so grouchy too. The feeling juz SUX.. grrr. No worries gals, I promise i'll get better by next wk in sch.

I need hugs!!! lotsa lotsa them and comforting alcoholic drinks!