work , study, work, study no play!

ARGHHh.. can someone tell me why i so lazy.. so num nua.. hurrr. always have to wait til laz min den panic den do my assignments... okay maybe not THAT laz min.. but i do very slow cos im so easily distracted!!! Current distraction: DRAMA: " My name is kim sam soon"!!~ actually i watched before le lah. but im still addicted to it now ever since its shown on tv recently.. Im like youtubing so often to watch.. tt guy so shuai!!!! the main lead: xuan bin.. The 2nd guy lead..that mixed blood henry oso shuai! n samsoon so cUte and chubby whhhahahaz. SO guys.. who say chubby and older gals dun have their charm??? They are pretty too!!!

Anyway, august quickly end .. pls.. pls .. pls.. let all the assignments quickly hand in.. im gg die of stress already.. *faint*...

I want to meet frens.. is juz sch and work for me recently.. sobz..
i wanna meet val, lydia, ky, ness....
i wanna meet kev and rick...
i wanna meet meiyi, nat and jackson....
i wanna meet all the ppl i say im gg to meet them soon but din manage to do so..

i wanna SING KTV.. i wanna CLUB!... i wanna.... PACK MY ROOM.. i wanna ROLLERBLADE...
i wanna spend one whole day SLEEPING...............................

emotional rollercoaster ride

im mad.. i noe is not something surprising.. i haven blog for ages. cos im too damn busy too stressed up to blog.. i miss blogging but i dun even have time to slp.. really.. gg thru another emotional rollercoaster ride recently. too packed.. poor time management. im so stressed up by all the assignments that are going to due so soon., and im like still like kinda lost in how to complete them.. haiz. u wont be able to believe it. im so stressed up that i cried, i screamed, i scratched myself, i tot of juz killing myself and drown myself in my own distress.. oh,, i sound really frightening and mad rite. i tink so too. That sometimes i feel scare myself.. like i wasnt like tt in the past. Was always so carefree and not worried abt meeting dateline and i manage to complete everything nicely in the end. Not much of hiccups on the way.. i duno wat happened to me too. OKay.. i kinda noe. juz dunno how to accept it. Its the mentality basically. Lucky my insanity doesnt last long.. thks to my dear boo who has been tolerant, patient and understanding! Luv u darling! muacks! without him i guess i might juz lose it. IM LIKE SO STRESSED UP! the words "juz kill me" keep running thru my head when i see that piles of printed papers of references, lecture notes, references texts etce etc.. and i mean PILES.. no kidding u.

N the time i spent at work dealing with figures, cheque numbers, invoices.. etc....... to complete all my assignments i had heed my boo's advice to take leave for tis wk and the next. Now i can relax abit.. a tiny weeny bit*phew* Relax abit today.. as me and boo went to watch chee leong's compeition in the National wushu & "san da' competition 2006. leong now is trained in muay thai den compete in "san da"- a kind of martial arts in this competition. Super cool lor. i mean is not juz plain fighting,., u need strategy and techniques!~ hahahahz nice! im like his "fan" now lah. hahahz. Today is a happy day .. as my parents are back from their tiny vacation at ching mai. bought me stuffs too! keke. i feel better tis few days already. relieved..

i tink im wierd..always having emotional rollercoaster ride.. sometimes i want to be exciting and having wild interesting happenings.,. sometimes i want to be juz blissfully watching drama wif my boo or doing something real simple. i tink i become anti social too recently becos of my busy schedule. i haven been meeting alot of ppl..and i dun really feel like socialing... i haven club( and i mean the kind tht i actually enjoy myself and not those tt i go and im not having fun @ all) like ages...but dun really feel like clubbing either. maybe fatigue is too much to bear until i juz wanna lie on my bed an entire day and SLEEP... have been slping for like 3 to 6 hrs daily only. im kinda a mad and wierd person.. y does ppl like u all out there want to be my fren? im an emotional nutcase aka atomic bomb... hmmm......... u all muz be mad too..

busy busy busy

SO so so so busy!~ hahhaz work study work study play!~ im getting worried for my assignments.. haven really started yet. my gdness. im juz gg to camp in the library tml wif yanting, hong and yuling to look for materials.. N sunday too! gotta clear up my assignments! and i had decided NOT to work for Comex rdshow.. hmmm starhub can survive without a small fry like me.. hahhaz. cant take it if im gg to be in adecco's office during the wkdays and working comex on wkends. i tink im gg to faint. Plus with so many assignments due end of the mth. i got less than 2 wks to complete them. JUZ kill me or knock me out! okok. for the sake of money and a more fulfilling life i muz WORK HARD and STUDY HARD!~ yeah yeah.. ning trying to be superwoman over here!

*yawnz* Morn class tml @ 930....................... hurrr.......

LIME FLEA MKT

Hey hey!!! SUmmerbloomz have successfully spread its wings to the flea mkt!!!! Super duper fun!! Many thanks to those who specially came down to give support. April, Shanice, yanping,diana, yingda,yiwen,cheryl, TWINNIE!,and hong & keni who came so late!! hahz hmm who else did i miss? hahhahaz MUACKS!~!~! YUP YUP. its a very nice experience.. its not easy to be doing a biz u noe! hahahz. at least now tt we got more exposure and hopefully more customer base! heez. Though i very blur about tracking the items and counting money.. hurr. but we still make some money nonetheless. Heez... ben si le!

THis wk is so busy!!! Started work @ adecco doing payroll.. writing cheques and tracking money.. cant believe i so lousy wif numbers and im doing tis job rite.. well i have to learn someday dont i! hahahz. its a gd experience lah plus i like the money and the peeps there! =)
Den i have summerbloomz doing pretty well recently too! creative juices are running. This wk's happening still includes Vanessa coming back fr USA~~ and all 4 of us went to the airport to fetch her! aint we sweeet??? keke.. wat a busy busy wk. n i still manage to catch a movie wif boo tis wk too. But i neglected my projs! i dun have enuf TIME!!!! God.pls give me more TIME puhlease.. will u??? im planning my schedule for next wk, like when to work & when to do proj. So i feel more organised in some way. Actually i like being busy.. at least it makes my life more hmmm fulfilling??? hmmm... yup!~

okay.. show u all some pics of the LIME flea mkt:


The Proud Owners of SummeRbLooMz!~















Uni mates that gives their support! (plus yanping and diana who din appear in the pic. heez)



















My TWINNIE!!!!















The stall....& the items...
































Moi *happy* Face!

PRojects!

FInally finished up my WIL individual assignment.. i have been too slack., my goodness., rushing proj is madness! THe wkend was spend working for STarhub anni rdshow. Super big rdshow..another madness. not doing sales counter.. though i was damn pissed at first lah. but quite a blessing oso lah. at least i wont make mistakes in my work orders!! SO many promos lah.. n so many applications forms. duh. SO was send to do something like dispute handling.. more slack heez.... blesssing in disguise! *winks*

OKay im over my bday blues.. its has been a wk already... its juz me.. yup. emotional. crazy. nonsensical.

Current status is. restless, tired, still crazy. still nonsensical. wahhahahz

Working at adecco for today.. n tml.. hmm not yet cfm but maybe i could work there perm part time? i wish to!! * cross my fingers* heez. Cos i tink alex quite pissed wif me for various reasons liao so i dun have much chances to work STarhub unless there's a big rdshow. Sobz.., so sad. anyway. im slpy.. din slp much the last few days. rushing projects and working..

Yawnz.. Ning is back to normal mode again..

Thk u for loving me for who i am

I am so touched by wat one of my bez pal lydia had wrote for me.. Well, its between my grp of galfrens so im keeping it personal except for this sentense tt im gg to quote.

"Love isnt in the hugs & kisses but the silent words & presence of ppl who r juz rite there to listen, cry & pray 4 u"...

I guess during the chalet and during alot of my time wif ppl, i had always like hugz and kisses. NOt juz fr my bf, fr frens too. I duno.. i juz like giving and receiving hugz. There is tis supposedly "warmth" in them tt is comforting.. Like you noe tt person is a frend so u give and receive a hug becos u care. Its not like becos im crazy and drunk the other day tt i wanted hugz and kisses...

I tink i keep avoiding and denying(sometimes) the fact tt i need alot of love.. i need attention!N im such a love and attention seeker.. i need ppl to tell me im gd.. i need praises to work better. Well it has been proven by tis MBTI personality test taken during my Leadership management class. i agree i oso need alot of acceptance. I want to be accepted. i hate being outcasted.But more imptly, i want to be accepted becos of who i am..i want ppl to like me for who i am.

N lydia i really like and appreciate what she had said in the above quote.. LOVE is really given by the ppl who had still considered my as a very gd fren despite all my nonsenses. I noe alot of ppl would have think tt im really in a crazy streak and my emotional turbulences comes so ever often i can well be living in the mental hosipital. Im glad there are still ppl who believes in me.. Trust tt im still a gd gal at heart and im being brought up well by my parents.

Friendship is believing in one another and giving the support, the love and the concern endlessly with trust. I luv u all!~

i feel so sick abt my actions tt im gg to puke.

Lesson1 : A few months of being good can merely be destroyed by a moment of stupidity.

Lesson2: A moment of stupidity or a series of bad memories sticks in your brain like bubblegum @ the sole of your sneakers.Hard to remove & super frustrating.

Lesson3: The more ppl are forgiving towards me, the more i feel im unforgivable. Its juz become a deep sinking feeling right down to bottomless pit.

Lesson4: Someone told me tis. To remedy a mistake, you have to work twice as hard or even 5-10 times harder to gain back what you had lost. Go thru the hardships becos u deserved to be punished.

Lesson5: Being stupid once is understandable, being stupid twice is forgivable, being stupid thrice is incorrigible.

Lesson6: Love who i am and stop disappointing others.

Lesson7: Someone told me tis. Dont say u noe when u cant prove it with actions.

Lesson8:someone told me tis. NO point crying over spilt milk...juz get over it.

Lesson9: Dun believe when ppl say "eveything is alrite" when u noe fr ur bottom of ur heart that nuttin is gg to stay the same again. The distance and coldness is obvious.

Lesson10: Dont treat me like a princess til i can wash away my sins, remedy the mess, rectify the situation and redeem my status.

:LoVe Me oR HaTe Me:[I am Who I am]: Stupid,impulsive, crazy,whiny, childish, wilful, wild, insenstive and immature.