emotional rollercoaster ride

im mad.. i noe is not something surprising.. i haven blog for ages. cos im too damn busy too stressed up to blog.. i miss blogging but i dun even have time to slp.. really.. gg thru another emotional rollercoaster ride recently. too packed.. poor time management. im so stressed up by all the assignments that are going to due so soon., and im like still like kinda lost in how to complete them.. haiz. u wont be able to believe it. im so stressed up that i cried, i screamed, i scratched myself, i tot of juz killing myself and drown myself in my own distress.. oh,, i sound really frightening and mad rite. i tink so too. That sometimes i feel scare myself.. like i wasnt like tt in the past. Was always so carefree and not worried abt meeting dateline and i manage to complete everything nicely in the end. Not much of hiccups on the way.. i duno wat happened to me too. OKay.. i kinda noe. juz dunno how to accept it. Its the mentality basically. Lucky my insanity doesnt last long.. thks to my dear boo who has been tolerant, patient and understanding! Luv u darling! muacks! without him i guess i might juz lose it. IM LIKE SO STRESSED UP! the words "juz kill me" keep running thru my head when i see that piles of printed papers of references, lecture notes, references texts etce etc.. and i mean PILES.. no kidding u.

N the time i spent at work dealing with figures, cheque numbers, invoices.. etc....... to complete all my assignments i had heed my boo's advice to take leave for tis wk and the next. Now i can relax abit.. a tiny weeny bit*phew* Relax abit today.. as me and boo went to watch chee leong's compeition in the National wushu & "san da' competition 2006. leong now is trained in muay thai den compete in "san da"- a kind of martial arts in this competition. Super cool lor. i mean is not juz plain fighting,., u need strategy and techniques!~ hahahahz nice! im like his "fan" now lah. hahahz. Today is a happy day .. as my parents are back from their tiny vacation at ching mai. bought me stuffs too! keke. i feel better tis few days already. relieved..

i tink im wierd..always having emotional rollercoaster ride.. sometimes i want to be exciting and having wild interesting happenings.,. sometimes i want to be juz blissfully watching drama wif my boo or doing something real simple. i tink i become anti social too recently becos of my busy schedule. i haven been meeting alot of ppl..and i dun really feel like socialing... i haven club( and i mean the kind tht i actually enjoy myself and not those tt i go and im not having fun @ all) like ages...but dun really feel like clubbing either. maybe fatigue is too much to bear until i juz wanna lie on my bed an entire day and SLEEP... have been slping for like 3 to 6 hrs daily only. im kinda a mad and wierd person.. y does ppl like u all out there want to be my fren? im an emotional nutcase aka atomic bomb... hmmm......... u all muz be mad too..