NingGeGe is a HappY GaL.. hahhaz is oso "yi li zhu"...

Yst so happy, finally managed to meet my twinnie.. went to eat prata!!!~~ keke.. eat until so bao.. hahahz. N tok cok wif my twinnie.He gg in army soon le.. neh.. will miss ya!!

Today, jess gdgd come n have lunch wif me. we ate KFC.. still took a pic wif jess's hp n send it to cindy via email. ahhahhz Cindy lah.. dun wan to come join us for lunch..heez.. Aft lunch went shopping wif jess.. i din buy anything lah., she did though. one hr very fast gone le.. den go back shop liao lor. sob sob.. den cont to email our dear cindy lor. I saw a few pairs of nice heels n sandals fr POA.. but now is not the time to buy lah. no chance to wear. Wait for a few mths when i redeem back my student status! yeah!!!! so happy!! hhahhahz..

Tml gg SIM to do the application n attend the talk.. heez.. taking half day leave tml. so happy!

Hmm.. nuttin much to blog lah recently.. happy happy..
anyway, my blogger abit siao liao leh. While writing tis entry, my "create post" page is distorted.. the icons on top..for "bold" lah etc are all at the side now..hurr..someone help me! is only tis pg lor for creating new entry. hai.. y ar??? Did i click something accidentally n changed the format or something?? hurr....

Personality test-Working Style.. (im just so bored @ work.hahahz)

Your Working Style

You radiate sympathy and fellowship. You concern yourself chiefly with the people around you and place a high value on harmonious human contacts. You are friendly, tactful, and sympathetic. You are persevering, conscientious and orderly even in small matters, and inclined to expect others to be the same. You are particularly warmed by approval and sensitive to indifference. Much of your pleasure and satisfaction comes from the warmth of feeling of people around you. You tend to concentrate on the admirable qualities of other people and are loyal to respected persons, institutions, or causes, sometimes to the point of idealizing whatever you admire.

You have the gift of finding value in other people's opinions. Even when these opinions are in conflict, you have faith that harmony can somehow be achieved and you often manage to bring it about. To achieve harmony, you are ready to agree with other's opinions within reasonable limits. You need to be careful however, that you don't concentrate so much on the viewpoints of others that you lose site of your own.

You are mainly interested in the realities perceived by your five senses, so you become practical, realistic, and down-to-earth. You take great interest in the unique differences in each experience. You appreciate and enjoy your possessions. You enjoy variety but can adapt well to routine.

You are in your best in jobs that deal with people and in situations where cooperation can be brought about through good will. You are found in jobs such as teaching, preaching, and selling. Your compassion and awareness of physical conditions often attracts you to health professions, where you can provide warmth, comfort, and patient caring. You are less likely to be happy in work demanding mastery of abstract ideas or impersonal analysis. You think best when talking with people, and enjoy communicating. You have to make a special effort to be brief and businesslike and not let sociability slow you down on the job.

You like to base your plans and decisions upon known facts and on your personal values. While liking to have matters decided or settled, you do not necessarily want to make all the decisions yourself. You run some risk of jumping to conclusions before you understand the situations. If you have not taken time to gain first-hand knowledge about a person or situation, your actions may not have the helpful results you intended. For example, in the beginning of a new project or job, you may do things you assume should be done, instead of taking the time to find out what is really wanted or needed. You have many definite "shoulds" and "should nots," and may express these freely.

You find it is especially hard to admit the truth about problems with people or things you care about. If you fail to face disagreeable facts, or refuse to look at criticism that hurts, you will try to ignore your problems instead of searching for solutions.

Well, big annoucement to make: IM GG BACK TO STUDY!

Keke... so happy recently.. cos i finally make the final decision. Act want to keep it low BUT.. as all of u noe.. JIAN NING IS A BIG MOUTH.. i cant help it but tell ppl.. esp abt things im so excited abt.. something im anticipating.. hahahhz. so i decided to blog abt it anyway.. hahahz those who knew.. well bear wif me ya. hahahhhahaz

Yes yes yes.. im gg back to study. SIM. RMIT- BAchelor of Business (Management). Studying wif me will be yt and hong. yeah!! proj mates yippee!! but i dunno hong choosing wat specialisation lah. me n yt would be choosing majoring in HR and minor in Mkting.. yupz. i noe HR may sound boring but doing mkting again seems er.. repetitive too. plus i see how stress lyly they all are.. boo yah..i wanna try something diff.. Anyway, i got dip in mkting le. major in HR oso not bad for my degree. Got more choices in jobs in the future i hope. Discuss it wif my family already and they are very supportive! yeah love u mama, pabi, n jie jie.

Actually i tink everything sudd falls back to place. It all started wif cindy wanting to go back to study, and yt's dad asking her to go back to study.. n my dad who found a job (yes!!! it has been quite long since his laz proj) n encourage me to go back to study since his current proj will be for 2 yrs.. So sudd within the wk, all 3 of us made a decision to go back to study! Plus the fact that im quite sian about work. hahhz i mean i dont dislike my work i just get abit bored by it. I conclude that im still not mature enuf to work. hahahahhz. hopefully in 2 yrs time i'll be more prepared to cope with the stress lah, the politics lah.. the etc etec.. hahhaz. As for now i still wan to be A STUDENT!. Aft all my talks about how i miss being one. Im finally gg to make the final decision to fufil the wish!

Was toking to twinnie abt it, n i found myself pretty foolish. MOst ppl i knew all went in laz july n studying in SIM now. But i worked and get lost in my own confused world of being an adult n run back to the world where i belong as a student. Maybe im trying to be different from others, maybe im being too stubborn den who insist not gg to SIM. I have to admit my foolishness. I tot i was smart. but damn it.. my results wasnt tt great aft all. so here i am to go to SIM. me n my "big headedness". hai. But now tt i sorta wasted half a yr looking for the right path, at least i managed to make the right decision now. Is abit like running ard in a circle and u found urself back at the same spot and rethink where is ur destination.

I swear im not gg to waste my 2 yrs in SIM cos the fees damn ex u noe.. is my dad's hard earn money so im really gg to do well tis time. N of cos at the mean time, haf fun being a student! n cont my crazy behaviours and antics on my frens. keke... BEN BEN de Ga GA is coming BACK in JAn 06. hahahhaz.

I realised i say so much but i haven apply lor. hahaz not to worry i will definitely apply. already applied half day leave to go do all the application thingy. ( n my boss duno yet) yeah.! Let me cont to be excited for a few more days ya.. den later wont talk abt it le. hahhz until i finally get the letter for successful application ya.

*big mouth ning getting too excited* hahhahz..

Forgot to tok abt sat nite.. thank u kev,liangjie, vinod,lisa, william n jess for the fun time! stupid cindy pls come along next time k!!!! dun act guai le. I hope everyone had fun cos is i org one ma. hahahz although no big occasion. Retro nite at DBL O is not bad, our next target shall be Zouk reopens ya. Cant wait to see those pics taken cos got alot of "lesbianism" hahhaz.. i cant rem the no of times i french kiss lisa dearest. hahhz lucky boo boo so ONZ dun mind. hahahz. i guess the 3 of us gals had the most fun! (",) ---yawnz..

Happy emailing session wif jess n cindy!

Wahahahz. recently me, cindy and jess mad mad le. We keep using our company email to flood each other's mail box.. whahahha but it's so much fun!!! First time i felt that having a blackberry got use.. cos can read their mails n lauf to myself! keke, thanks gals! i enjoyed the emailing session tremendously! u 2 add some anticipation for me to read my emails and got something to be excited for during working hrs!

Back to the pressing issue.. WHO WANTS TO GO CLUB TIS SAT??? Jian ning n YingYi jio one!!
keke..1st time leh.. so interested party pls leave me a tag or msg me k? I haven even tot of the location? y zouk close.sob sob.. DBL O? or somewhere else? NVM.. i juz wanna party tis sat no matter wat. duno y oso.. juz feel like. heez. got the clubbing itch....neh... (",) N cindy.. stop acting guai le lah!!!!! wahhahahaz.. crazy gal.. how can u dan fei n dun wan me.. pout~~~

Anyway, made a few impt decision tis wk. shall not disclose it until everything had been settled and done. Wanna keep a low profile abt it first. But all those close frens, u noe wat im toking abt lah hor.. heez.. So no need for me to announce rite? *smilez*

I declare my "fat" status again.. duh. yst go eat cartel wif yt n cindy.. arghhh so fattening! but so yummy!!! hai.. thks baoying for the 15% discount. hahahhahz yummy yummy..

I gg to do sit up now le.. or else how am i gg to squeeze into my tube on sat nite???? my tummy.. sob sob.. POUT!

izzit time to make a decision again?

Just as i tot life is pretty gd rite now.. More used to my work already. Lesser hicups @ work, on gd terms wif my colleagues, Shop staffs, etc. Money coming in steadily every mth. Den the big issue came up again! AM i gg back to study?? Was toking to my other 2 biz colleagues-nat n meiyi, and all of us got intention to cont to study. Meiyi had applied for SIM already. So guess she's leaving next yr?? I was reading cindy's blog n realised she's gg for the nov intake. I even saw that BIG ad on newspaper tt day posted by SIM. So wat am i gg to do now?? I tot i got a job now, life is peaceful, n i can juz push the tots aside n cont my "nuaing" life. SO came the topic again by my parents asking me if i still wan to cont to study? If yes.. when?? Shld i cont wif my job n earn money til the contracts end. It will means sch starting next yr july. Hmm got start sch next jan one?? I actually wanted to try my luck on SMU again. But looking at my own results, i'll probably just wun be able to get in anyway. duh.

But kinda excited abt sch. imagine.. being a student again.. hahahz haven has tis feeling for a long long time.. yea yea.. i can be as crazy as can be again. hahahhaz. But am i ready? mentally? financially?? I noe i very indecisive..like duno wat to do wif my future. which is true. hai. Give me some more time to tink den i probably have to make a decision by tis wk before my parents nag until my ears drop off. hahahhaz.

Let's tok abt laz few days den. Went to meiyi's chalet on fri. alot of starhub ppl. hahahz from all the branches so there is alot of them tat i duno. Stay til we finish eating the cake n shared a cab home wif one of the CPE guy who lives in yishun too. yea. Sat.. went out wif my booboo n kel they all. Boo, yongsheng n eug all went into sispec. only Kel managed to go OCS. our future SIR! heez.. block leave over for them liao. so wun be seeing my boo until he bks out in the wkend. Watch a very stupid movie tat shows very brutal scenes.. -The Devil's Rejects. yucks.Dun watch it. stupid eugene choose one. hahhaz. he's gg to kill me cos i keep saying he choose such a lousy show. AFt tt was dinner at marche wif the rest of the gang. I tink im really bursting my waistline. I eat alot!! im very vvery fat now. my cheeks so fleshy now. arghhh.. im such a pig!. my god. i tink i need to diet. i too nua liao how.. growing fatter n fatter.. i cant stand looking sideview at myself in the mirror. pout.. me n my bottomless stomach. boo -hoo..

*my mouth itches again.. stomach growling.. need someting to munch again. hai*

MY samsung E700A spoilt le..

Tired tired. nuttin much happened recently actually. Maybe getting fatter??? hahahz lotsa late nite supper wif my colleagues at PS. heez. Farewell party for Edwin CPE tt time.. n yst was waiting til quite late for the perms esp our "zhu jiao" Shiling jiejie! heez. She's transferring back to TM le. so wun be able to see her at PS anymore. SOb sob.. so we all gave her a farewell party at meridien again. Had fun.. but truly tired..

Den my toopid samsung everytime drop den nv spoilt sudd yst the LCD screen blacks out on me. ARghhh.. in the end cause me to have a quarrel wif my boo boo. Lucky my boo boo easy to coax hahahz. chou chou ren is da bez lah. How can angry wif me for long. Not my fault tt i dun wan to ans his call wat. is my stupid hp spoilt. diaoz.. pissed pissed.. but was appleased very fast after tt. hahaz food glorious food wif the hubbers. Settle wif my boo n he happily go slp while i go munchz.

Tml gg to Meiyi's 21st bday chalet! my shi fu.. hahahz hope she likes the present n once again BBQ food!! yummy yummy. hahhaz. tired. shall not blog anymore. See wat happen tis wkend den will update again. yawnz. tired.

*my skin getting better. dunno y oso. but im still glad. maybe becos recently not very stressed. hahahahz.. gd skin finally. YEAH!!!~~

I love my bOo Boo!

MY boo POP le.. den go redang wif kel, eugene n eug's fren yst nite. Before tat went lydia's church see her dance performance. Super cool. U go GaL!! hahahz. im such direction idiot. i took 4 cabs ride yst. hahahahz i noe im mad. I tok 132 tinking it could rch lyd's church directly( it used to be able to) but the bus changed route ( duno since when) n im at hougang interchange sudd. Den i took bus no 80 supposedly gg to bring me to the church but dunno y i miss the stop n im at PUNGGOL?!! hahahz so i sianz 1/2, alight at a bus stop n raise my right hand! hahahhaz. Aft the dance event, realised everyone gg home for dinner. Den val meeting her parents so she left half way. So i took bus wif kaiyin go back AMK find boo n took cab fr AMK lavender to meet kel. Finally grab something to eat at the army mkt. im so hungry lah hahahhaz.. Den watched them play billard cos i got too much time to spare before meeting the temps n edwin (CPE) for supper. SO i stayed til eug n his fren came n we all r waiting for their coach which is terribly late. Poor thing boo boo. forever so shuay one hahhahz. I want to go holis wif my boo boo again!!! juz like laz yr!!! hong gg to bkk .. yearning.. hahahz..

WOrk has been good recently, quite slack. no disputes.. hahahz feeling socially accepted...left my depression state already!! Gg meiyi's chalet tis fri n i bought her prezzies already. I hope she likes what i bought cos i like wat i bought!!! heez.

i like my new hair!!! is nicer now compared to how it looks like when i juz cut it. Yeah!! Yst morn my mum helped me dyed my hair!! Dark Red Copper Blond. hahahz even though not very obvious cos is DIY one, but can see got colouring lah! heez...

Woo hoo.. i missing my boo boo already. realised recently i really cant live without him . in a way. more nian compared to laz time. I mean i still love my life n everything n enjoy things the way it has all along been. But i noe he is the one who will stand by me no matter wat. heez. LOVE ya BOO BOO!! muacks!!!

I haven recover fr my cough! hai..

Hai.. sian.. read my prev entries i sounded so sad. hahahz. But act my work not very stressful one leh. Dunno where my stress come fr. *wondering* Dun care.. this wk had been pretty peaceful.. so im glad. Yst was boo boo's POP though i din attend at least his parents did. So my boo boo not so poor thing aft all. heez.sorry dearie gotta work! But he still came over laz nite to pei me. heez. chou chou ren is the BEST!!

My cough still not recover yet im gg to wake up super early tml so tt i could see the doc before i go to work. hai. It's getting tt bad tt my chest or my back hurt whenever i cough. Im getting sore throat too. probably becos i coughed too much. hai..

Read siew's n twinnie blog. Tot tt i could write abt 5 things im thankful today. heez.

1. Boo boo sending me to the MRT station for work
2. my mum preparing my lunchbox for tml
3. i got colleagues who cared abt my cough
4. No diffcult customer today
5. Edwin and Chris for being so nice to me ( Im gg to miss Edwin in CPE~)

Gotta go finished up my chi novel le date due is tis sat. *yawnz*

for today: IM BEN BEN DE GAGA....*smilez*

I wasnt "ben ben de GaGa" for ages.. ever since im working.. I miss those days.. hahah. I realised i keep toking abt it recently. Missing.. Keep tinking abt days tt had been in the past. Tink i shld look forward..look at my future or sumting.. n not keep looking back. looking for familar ground. familiar faces. familiar surrounding... hurr.. beginning to dislike meself recently. sudd the depression state again.. Where is jian ning??? where is ben ben de gaga??? i haf to grow up dun i?

Luckily for today.. i am BEn Ben De GaGa... went comex wif geri n rick kor. bought a bagful of pastries n bread fr crystal jade bakery to bring up for them to eat as snacks. As i promised yd n yw to bring gd food for them. The catered food they had is er terrible i heard. N oso bought 2 large bottles of mineral water for them since they only have those packeted kind. poor things.

Today truly happy.truly me. i realised i dun really like my new hair. hahahz look too "ben" already the fringe. abit not used to it. Anyway, yw keep touching n combing it down hahahahz. and all the ICs all call me "ben ben"!! hahahz BUT im HAPPY! Cos i feel "tenged" hahaz dunno y oso. like old days.. ppl call me ben ben.. heez.

Tink my hair cut is an act of rebelliousness. an act to show tt im juz sick of things. juz wanna cut it all away. hahhahaz. now i gotta live wif it. abit contradicting.. i like n i hate tis hairstyle. Watever. i dun understand myself anyway. duh. Wat i wan to say is today i get to see ppl who i like n like me. juz like gd old days. happy day.... very long i haven been in casual.. in my levis.. smiling to ppl i noe.. saying ben ben things as i wish ( of cos to my boo boo is constanly one lah).. not caring wat other thinks. yeah.., tis is me. the ReaL NinG.. LuV me Or HaTe Me.. yea...

Yet again the time to discover myself. duh. I found myself today.

cutting crazy crazy hair to cheer myself up!!

Tis wk hasnt been too gd.. I screwed up again becos one customer..hai..So the whole wk was like living on the edges cos i have to keep calling cust and getting scolded by him. duh.. I juz hope he dun send an email to complain. arghhh.. The shop is bz tis wk... Dun feel appreciated yet again,sometimes.. maybe i too bored le so i tink too much. N i feel bad towards edwin n chris. Sorry guys!! caused u all to get reprimanded becos wat i had done. Though they r not gg to read my blog.. i still tink i shld say it. So at least i feel much better. Dun haf the chance to tell them in person cos recently Roy is always ard. hai.. I'll be a gd gal not not be playful anymore lah. Guess i have to learn how to self entertain aft all, cant always go into "authorised personnel only" -the restricted area as freely as before anymore. not anymore. cant be so gd frens anymore. cos it feel weird. feel guilty for causing them to be reprimanded. Yet no manager fr my side reprimand me. funny. if they tink is not right y dun they juz reprimand me instead? is not their fault anyway. Is i go in as i wish everytime leh. DUh. Work sometimes seems so meaningless when there r no cust. though i love helping them not really becos im helpful. I mean i dun mind helping but mainly becos im juz damn bored. N i feel like a "fei ren" juz sitting in the pantry n stone. Waiting for any biz sales. hai. Sometimes duno if they feel like im a fool. can run errands can help out or wat. Dunno where i stand. Shld i judge them or juz stop having funny tots abt these kind of issues. Duno how to judge either. Adults are so weird....Tink im tinking too much. MUZ stay neutral.. Keep my emotions to myself. Cant seem to do tt.. muz be PMSing again duh. i hate tt phase. Muz keep away fr trouble.

Happy tots for now. Went to cut my hair today. I got someting like the Superstar KElly .. not purposely one. Cos i was tinking cutting my hair shorter than before n cutting the now trendy straight fringe. there.. the effect is the kelly hairstyle lor. I bet alot of ppl at work will say tt on mon. hahhaz. dun care. Im happy wif my Hair! tt is wat it matters rite? Next step is to colour it. A deep red tone.. abit like purple kind. woo-hoo.. next wk. im gg to dye my hair!

Went out wif kev aft haircutting. Eat outback's steak! yummy.. my tummy so big now lor hahahahhz. Cos i owed him a gd meal very long le. plus haven celebrate his bday wif him. Love toking to him too.heez. we cont our talk all the way to esplanade.. den aft which he went to meet jayson they all for drinking session while i go back home. Went back home found out tt my parents went comex today n bought a digi cam! finally my house got digicam liao! so happy!!! but is quite big tt kind. Those got the lens jutting out kind u noe. the look very pro kind. Ya.. my dad likes it ma. hahahz. Gg comex tml wif rick kor n geri! yeah! promise to go look for rdshow ppl. I bet alot of new ppl.., hai all the old batch like nv work le. So actually not much ppl to look for oso. The ICs ba. Promise alex tt time tt i'll go down and yd,yw to bring food n drinks for them.

*YawWnZz* gg to slp soon. ~coughcough~ im still sick. hai.