for today: IM BEN BEN DE GAGA....*smilez*

I wasnt "ben ben de GaGa" for ages.. ever since im working.. I miss those days.. hahah. I realised i keep toking abt it recently. Missing.. Keep tinking abt days tt had been in the past. Tink i shld look forward..look at my future or sumting.. n not keep looking back. looking for familar ground. familiar faces. familiar surrounding... hurr.. beginning to dislike meself recently. sudd the depression state again.. Where is jian ning??? where is ben ben de gaga??? i haf to grow up dun i?

Luckily for today.. i am BEn Ben De GaGa... went comex wif geri n rick kor. bought a bagful of pastries n bread fr crystal jade bakery to bring up for them to eat as snacks. As i promised yd n yw to bring gd food for them. The catered food they had is er terrible i heard. N oso bought 2 large bottles of mineral water for them since they only have those packeted kind. poor things.

Today truly happy.truly me. i realised i dun really like my new hair. hahahz look too "ben" already the fringe. abit not used to it. Anyway, yw keep touching n combing it down hahahahz. and all the ICs all call me "ben ben"!! hahahz BUT im HAPPY! Cos i feel "tenged" hahaz dunno y oso. like old days.. ppl call me ben ben.. heez.

Tink my hair cut is an act of rebelliousness. an act to show tt im juz sick of things. juz wanna cut it all away. hahhahaz. now i gotta live wif it. abit contradicting.. i like n i hate tis hairstyle. Watever. i dun understand myself anyway. duh. Wat i wan to say is today i get to see ppl who i like n like me. juz like gd old days. happy day.... very long i haven been in casual.. in my levis.. smiling to ppl i noe.. saying ben ben things as i wish ( of cos to my boo boo is constanly one lah).. not caring wat other thinks. yeah.., tis is me. the ReaL NinG.. LuV me Or HaTe Me.. yea...

Yet again the time to discover myself. duh. I found myself today.