i find myself irritating...

U might be surprised.. Yes all of u reading tis post ur eyes r perfectly fine.. I DO FIND MYSELF IRRITATING.. u r polite( or lying) if u tell me "no..u r not..." Cos doing numerous reflection abt myself, my actions and my behaviour.. tis is the FINAL Conclusion i get. I really do mean wat i say. is like. I have been whining, and whining.. complaining and complaining... toking abt the same old thing.. between me n boo n someone.. for like weeks.. for some who knew the story maybe mths.. N it is all the same story!!!! n i repeated it day in day out.. same old thing.. maybe alittle update everyday depending on wat actually happened. but tat's all abt it. I Dun understand myself too. Y am i becoming like tis. Even cindy say all my entries are the same practically. upset, anger..happy. more upset.. more anger.. more happy.. duh. "wat the hell...??!!" I wondered how many of u tolerated me.... hahhaz

Thank u Yanting for all phone calls at nite, Rick, kevin, lionel n cindy who listen to my whining.. n yingda n yiwen too sometimes.. hahahz. Im so diff fr all their frens n they can tolerate me.. Im not like Iris..not like Connie, not like grace, gloria.. , not like B10... not like sharon, xiao yan, not like michelle, cheryl... Im ME.. so diff fr the rest. so "extreme".. guess u either love me or hate me ba. BUt still *bow* thk u so much! hahahz i very "pei fu" u all lor. can "tahan" me for so long. And oso boo! he tolerated all my nonsense.. for 2 yrs wif love n care. thks my dear fren!

I want to *slap* myself.. Cant i juz get over it???? Looking for answers when its already placed right infront of me. Regreting things tat i had done n feeling guilty for my other actions.. gosh.. what had i become?? SO bothered abt so many things. damn. Wake me up. slap me if u want. im tired of it. i noe its gg to end. 1 more day to be exact. Bye bye dear fren. im expecting wat's gg to happen next. im walking, walking out of ur life. I hate u! i noe i do! bleahx. N i noe u r not gg to read tis. putting it to an end. period. full stop. irritated. upset. making me guilty over boo. out of my life. hurt. damn shoo. go away even if i dun wan u to. stop making me to start hating myself too. im beginning to find myself irritating already. damn u! Grrrrr.....