happy day out @ holland V=starbucks + laksa + wala

Meet up wif Yingda & Yiwen to study @ Starbucks... spent the whole aftnoon there but not very productive leh!! study, chat, study abit.. crap somemore.. whahhahaz.YD Supposed to treat me ice cream @ bukit timah. but my lazy bum sugar daddy din drive today so we stayed at holland v the whole day. duh.. laksa for dinner n chilling out @ wala. hahha tt waiter jason, vinod + gang's gd fren... act gave me a free drink. whahhaz juz becos i mentioned abt vinny & the gang! so gd rite. whahahz. thks vinny, well n ur fav waiter! hahahz !!

- wala de-stressed me. whahhaz-

Compiled ER assign2.. left ting's part n the final sorting out before i do the laz part of editing to stay within word limits. hurr. i dun like to edit. bleahx. sleepy aft the few vodka lime.. had fun wif the 2 of them , as usual. hahahz.

* yawnz* GD NITEZ... *yawnz*

i juz love to slp!

Aft so many stressful days, managed to went home early today to catch some quality sleeping time. i juz love sleeping!!! in a much better mood n felt less drained aft a gd slp. It perks me up! hahahaz im so damn tired recently.. so drained.. mentally.. wif all the projs. Econs test is easy since the lecturer went thru most the possible qns tt REALLY did come out. hahhahaz plus the fact tt it is multiple choice.. keke.. HD is on the way i hope. heez.

Aft the test, did some discussion on ER.. I juz finish typing my part and passed it on to yuling to cont.. phew.. at least i noe the proj is more than half done. i hate the very very laz min kind of work. so muz get it done n compile by thurs latest.

Actually nuttin much to blog, hmmm.. maybe abit on now the uni peeps understand how the real ning is like ba. hmm.. u grow to understand one another better aft things happen. hmm. yuppy!.
*yawnz* got 2 lecs tml.. zzzZZZZZZZzzzzz

Getting alittle stressed up!

Grrr.. im always so emotional.. so short plus hot tempered.. haven change much thru the years... hahahz ok lah. i curb them once in awhile. hahahz ever since i worked laz time, im having slightly more control over my anger. But sometimes.. or many times.. it juz leash out.. fast n sharp.. Well, i nv stay angry for long.. tt is i guess the only plus pt. duh.. im juz me.. Ning is forever like tt. im sorry if i offended anyone becos of tis nature of mine. Stressed ar!! dun want to tok more abt the hrm grp proj since its over... wat's done is done.. so juz forget abt it n tml is a new day.. ya u get wat i mean.

Im getting stressed up.. i seldom feel stress up for sch work.. cos i always manage to get by without eh... being very hardworking? or trying v hard? Uni is diff i guess. Cant anyhow anyhow oso can get things done. how sad.. So many assignments n so little time!! N im too num nua already.. *slap myself*.. self discipline! cant find any.. duh. i need to get started on my HMT real soon or else im really dead.. sobz.. N im having econ test tml!!! yet my blogging now. im so terrible!! hurrr... Hopefully can finish up most of ER grp proj tml. It's a MUST!!!

Okay.. back to mugging for econs test.. i doubt i can get HD for tis test already. Maybe a Distinction? i'll be as contented.. hahahhz

random tots....

juz wanna blog alittle before i get prepared n head out to meet hong they all do ER grp assignment.

We r living in tis ever changing world.. grrr. changes changes dont i juz hate changes. Work.. gotta have some changes soon i guess. grrr. structural changes r normally permanent. gosh.

I want to find a new blogskin tt can display chi characters!! always feel tt blogging in chi very "you gan chu" one. wahhaz im such a "chi-na" person. duh.. pardon me puhleaseee...

Sometimes when u carry a burden for too long, it stays inside ur heart n it become rooted there. it become so embedded in u tt u become so sensitive abt the whole matter n it kinda affect the things u do. tis happens to a fren. dunno whether to say if its a gd thing or bad. Since im the happy go lucky person tt wont tink so much when doing things.. maybe nuttin had been rooted in me so deep ba. Maybe family matters ba if there is.. hmmm.. *qns mark*

My "gong gong" is in the hospital already. Glad tt he agreed to see the doc. Hope he gets well soon!

Getting bz.. Lydia bday coming.. assignments due... test... den Exams!! oh mine.

Tis entry is so non-sensical.. hahahz but i kinda like it. there is no flow to the things i wrote. is juz my random tots.. Very random indeed. hahhahaz.. my tots..

Little Ms Aunt Agony.

Little Ms aunt agony is back! MOre settled wif my own feelings now so i can see things clearly n lend my listening ear, a shoulder to cry on n my objective mouth tt does the talking. Im not saying im always rite. i did stupid things n screwed my own relationships rem?? But i guess ppl learn n u grow up ba. wat more can i say rite? heez. Im back as little ms aunt agony. juz love being needed n giving my pt of view on stuffs. Having heard alot of relationship woes fr frens... i would juz like to say: there is no right or wrong in a relationship, becos it all boils down to the love u have for each other n how much u r willing to give n take. ( quoted fr something i tink boo said before.. ) There is alot of situations tt is happening to every single couple, i wont tell u wat to do is right cos it depends on both the parties in the relationship to make the whole thing work! And as for other stuffs i lend a listening ear to, etc.. Life is nv tt beautiful.. u juz gotta take each step carefully.

* ning is not as imature n naive as wat u all tink k.. Im little ms aunt agony. well any probs can always give me a call ya. if u noe me den u would have my no to call liao. hahahz if u dun. den dun tink u r my fren so dun bother calling. *hahahhaz

old age+ peaceful mind = life coming to an end...

Doing HRM grp proj in sch the whole day when sudd my mum gave me a call in the late aftnoon... NO gd news when she speaks in tt gan cheong manner since my mum is not tt gan cheong type. Asked me to give my sis a call to ask her to go down to my granny's place aft work. Bad news= my grandpa (mother's side) seems to be nearing the end of his journey. 7 plus.. received a call fr my sis to ask me to go down aft im done wif my proj. So i hurriedly finish my dinner n left. Luckily, we finished most of the discussion already.

Rched my granny's place n saw my whole family is already there waiting for me.. walked into my grandpa's room, seeing him lying on the bed.. so frail.. so thin..so small. It hurts me to see him so fragile..I Have to call out to him loudly, "Gong gong!..." before he could hear me clearly. Taking hold of his hand n asking if he is alrite.. tears r already swimming in my eyes. willing myself not to cry, i smiled at him. Seconds later, tears still falls. He called out to me and asked me to be a gd gal n listen to my mama.. Silence... with my mum at my side, i sat on the bed looking at my grandpa. I asked my mum how long has he been like tt, cos the news came as a shock to me. Same goes to my mum becos she oso knew it only today tt my grandpa wishes to see all of us. According to my granny n auntie who lives there it has been wks. My grandpa refuses to see the doc or take in any food. Guess he noe he is on his way.. His is not of worsening of sickness or disease. Though he has been on medication for like as long as i could rem, and it has always been in a stable condition. Is juz plain old age... tink he is ard 86 already. He seems to have give up on himself. Told my mum not to worry abt him cos he wants to stay in the bedroom n let him leave peacefully... They alway say u would noe when u r "leaving"... u juz KNOW... Is a gd thing i guess tt he experience no pain but juz weak in the body.. he cant really move but lay on the bed now.

This morning i was juz listening to 933 "ying yue ri ji" abt a story regarding death of the grandpa.. how "qiao" rite... the person who wrote in talks abt how we often cares so much of ourselves n wat happen in our own life n we forgot those dear to us... We were often so bothered abt our own life n problems esp in relationship... but forgot abt those we seldom see n care abt who r dear to us. Old age+ a peace of mind.. is when we noe our body aka "machine" is time to shut down..n that is when life is coming to an end..

"gong gong.. if u r to leave, pls leave peacefully... we will take gd care of ourselves. Hope u have enjoyed ur 86 years of ur life and bring along good memories wif u. Love u always."-sobz

saded-tis blogskin cant display chi character..hai..

New blogskin!

Haven change my blogskin for ages.. my fav is still the previous "lost in my memories" blogskin. but i was tinking a change would be gd too. so changed to tis kinda dark one. i like the butterflies though.. heez..

Went national lib to look for references for ER.. spent the whole aftnoon there. saw some peeps fr our lec too. next was to millenia walk to exchange my bausch& lomb contacts lens solution for $12 voucher. some recall program they have for tt case where ppl having eye infection or something using their products. No worries i had changed to another brand ever since the news was out i tink a mth ago.

Did a face mask while watching tv juz now. heez feels so gd. Decide to relax today. since schedule for the rest of the wk is gg to be pretty packed..

Tml: thurs: strive to complete HRM grp assignment.
Fri: strive to do as much for ER grp assignment.
Sat: working rdshow=$$
Sun: plan to do summary/ draft for HMT.
Mon: study for econs test 2.
Tues: econs test2!!

*Ning trying to keep herself occupied wif work and assignments.. so tt i wont be a lonely soul *

Feeling kinda blue.

I broke my own promise again... Went devils with shop peeps to celebrate sophia's and another new temp staff bday. Meet andy, ah ben and another new temp for dinner. N bought prezzies for the bday gals.. With so much persuasion fr andy n ben..i ended up gg Devils with them. duh.. Went Apple to look for weijie too... More chilling out at Devils than club cos my gdness its a mon nite..duh. Meet up wif more shop peeps who r already there... wif them ard, drinks like free flow like tt. LUcky gals no cover laz nite. heez. bonus. Not exactly fun cos most of the new temps i duno. but quite alrite lah. chilling and catching up wif those i know.

As for today.. stayed home the whole day. failed to find an article for ER grp assignment. duh. Watch campus superstar rerun on TV since i missed it laz nite. aftnoon nap. studied 2 chpts of econs notes. yupz. feeling blue.. realised i have been single for exactly 1 mth.(21/3) kinda miss boo. time passes so fast man. time really dun wait for u. Realised i dun rem the laz time i watched a movie. was it the geisha one wif boo or elizabethtown wif twinnie?? Used to watch movie wif boo, now like no one to watch movie wif. so i ended up not watching movie at all. duh. not much nice movies ard recently anyway rite?

Assignments assignments.. den exams... these few wks r gg to be packed.. cos assignments r all gg to due soon. Aft which is exams tt follow suit.. i hope i have at least 1 or 2 distinctions.. let's juz pray... bleahx.

*yawnz* im tired.. gg to get some slp tonite. tml needa meet up to do ER at the national lib. Man, dun i love tt place. gg there quite regularly to do projs.hmmm.. *yawnz*
feeling kinda blue on a tues..

Emo.. bored.. broke.. sick.

Went shopping with da jie(geri) on sat.. bought a nice pink top, face masks... retail therapy is da beZ! hahahz. Went PS too.. look for shop peeps oso.. heez. Aft tt went Xiurong's bday chalet wif twinnie. Juz a normal sat.

Worked yst..Chinatown. Rdshow. Continuation for IT show promo. Money money! heez. Mummy mention that she wanted to go on a holiday. And i gamely wanted to join her! hahhahz though we haven decided on where to go. but im quite determine to go on a vacation. Long time since i took a plane to somewhere.. anywhere.. So muz keep working recently plus the fact tt im so broke.. so many frens having bday so many expenses.hahahhaz. Twinnie say he cannot always be my part time.. so is better for me to work n earn money n keep myself occupy. is quite true actually. bleahx.

Feeling slightly emo yst. muz be becos im too bored n lonely... feeling sense of emptiness.. well, feeling happy for a few days muz balance it with 1 emo day. that's the equation for me. hahahaz.
assignments n tests r due soon.. muz jia you jia you le.

still slightly sick. not yet recover fully. dun tink joining the shop peeps to club tonite. broke + sick. dun fancy clubbing much anymore. tot of meeting them for dinner instead..hmmmm.. we shall see.. im juz a boring person. bleahx.

still sick...

My fever had gone down.. thk goodness!!. phew~ it doesnt feel gd to be sick esp when there is no one to whine to.. no one to take gd care of u.. duh.. i learn to take care of myself! bleahx. Anyway, my sore throat is still as bad.. I realised i always fall sick aft a major IT show.. duh *hub's fault but they give me gd money sia. hahahz.

Gotten results for my HRM assignment 1- Credit. ( so its better than a passed but lower than a distinction.duh.. so is average lah. diao..) and Prices and Mkting test1- High distinction. well, 95% of the cohort or class get HD lor. TT lecturer practically told us the qns tt will come out cos he keep gg thru them. whahahhz. Ting, muz jia you k! we jia you tgt. dun be so upset already ya!!

Sunday working.. rdshow. Finally back to the rdshow team wif more work schedule coming my way. i guess i redeem myself fr the IT show. hahahz. money money. i need money!

* Ning learning to take care of herself...hopefully.. bleahx. *

Xiao Ning Ning is sick.. sob sobz..

Woke up tis morn.. with an aching body... laz night wif my sore throat n running nose i could sense that something "bad" is gg to happen... As i expected, woke up wif a fever @ 38 deg. duh... took a quick bath n went to see the doc. So suay, today my doc not working... so im attended by a locum.. bleahx.. Msged Diana to say i couldnt meet her to do hrm research den headed to bed...Slp, slp, slp.. heez.. feel so much better.

I duno izzit becos of the effect of the medication, i dun feel upset or hurt or any of tt kind of emotions today. For an entire day. I feel normal.. very very normal. like nuttin had happened. hahahahz surprising rite?! I tink i had attained INNER PEACE!!! wahhahahz. u might not believe me but really... REALLY... it juz seems like i had awaken fr a dream n everything is back to kinda normal. Maybe is the medication..whahz.. well i duno. But finding inner peace is a gd feeling, i guess. the whole day im feeling so drowsy so 昏昏沉沉 ... hhmmm.. duno how long my "inner peace" will laz but i hope it will laz forever!! im a very forgiving person u see. I wish for all is gd n well..

Let me start tis “人性本善” theory tt i have.

人性本善，我深深地相信没有一个人会真正的想伤害另一个人。
这是我一厢情愿，单纯的想法吗？
或许吧。
在黑暗的心房里大概还有一点点的善良吧！
你可以笑我傻， 可是我还是这样的认为！

倔强的背后

倔强的背后--许慧欣

很沉默什么话你都没说
只静静拥抱我在熟悉路口
想说的太多一开口全忘了
不让画面难过很努力微笑
着谁记得谁为爱情着了魔
太冲动的说 you're all that i need
失去了你的生活再华丽又算什么
有些幸福简简单单就已足够
在倔将的背后看不见的伤口
在微笑的背后放弃自尊挽留
在故事的最后谁都不愿开口
在重逢的路口给我一个理由
让自己往前走
走向下个路口
找个人有和你似曾相识的温柔

I duno wat is love...

Happy 21st Birthday Yanting!!! I hope u will enjoy ur day and be happy always.

Aft all that happened, i guess is time i wake up to reality..Tis opening seems familiar rite.
i've been trying to pick myself up n wake up a million times i guess. Tis time Im serious.. it's for real... i promised! i swear! i guess i got at least 2 or 3 entries on trying to pick myself up. duh. but i nv did do so.. i mean yes i did recover but not entirely. So im trying one laz time. for real.

I have to admit that becos of my stupidity.. i had done millions of dumb n foolish stuffs. Now its over, no pt dwelling into it i guess. So much things to say but i juz couldnt explain it in words or shld i say some stuffs are not meant to be said. Truth, wat is it?...a line of blurness between truth n lie.. oh well, i dun want to noe anymore cos its no longer impt. I believed that tat someone is not enitrely at fault, im at fault too. i dun wan to put the blame on anyone. Things happened, we juz have to accept it now since its over. *Case closed* im tired of talking abt it already.

Im lucky to have so many ppl who cares for me n love me for who i am. there are so many evil ppl outside, but the ones i met are mostly 95% nice and gd person. The 5% are either really evil or im not sure if they r gd or bad. I tink i had upset alot of ppl (hmm my kors, val,ting,twinnie,etcetc u noe who u r..) im sorry... i din heed the advice u all gave. u all r rite, i have to learn fr mistakes. If life is so smooth sailing, i will nv get to learn fr it. it hurts i noe. give me time to pick myself up. I nv knew wat i want not even now. i guess is retribution. i kinda understand how boo feels ba. My fren, u have to be strong ya! im learning to be too. Im sorry abt the hurt i bring u.

OKay.. i want to love myself. i want to forget abt the unhappy stuffs. n even some happy ones.
i want a simple life. back to the ning when im in poly. ppl changed, i guess we all do.

realised aft so long i still dunno wat is love? Rick kor asked me tis qns. n i dunno wat to ans him. Since i duno wat is love den im probably not fit to love ba until the day i finally understand and know wat is love.

* Radio playing jay's "he se mao yi"......

-i edited this post a few times cos i dun wanna post similar entires...guess tis is the final one le-

sorry boo.

Sorry boo.. i noe its hard for u to cont to be frens. but that's my greatest wish..
SO many things i want to say but i dunno how to or wat to say.
i tink i kinda understand how u feel.. but there is nuttin i could do abt it...

* sometimes in the middle of the nite.
i wish i could shut down my mind.
erase all my memory..
place myself in a dreamworld
so i nv exist..
i hate nites.. it makes me lonely.
i tink too much..
it makes me irritating
i tok too much
it makes me spreading my own gossip
i see too much
im blinded by reality..
i hate tears
i got plenty.
i hate handphones
it makes me tink of stuffs.
i hate photos
it reminds me of too much happy stuffs.
i hate au xiang ju
it remind me tt drama is diff fr reality
i hate knowing both is trying to erase me fr their memory
one becos i hurt him so bad. one becos he hurt me so bad
i hate knowing tis stupid thing is not gg to end
unless i let myself go.
ppl ask me to stop being selfish.
stop trying to tink tt there is a happy ending happening
and stop tinking we can still be frens aft the break up.
i want to stop feeling gd one min, upset the next
I hate lonliness and the feeling of missing things tt happened in the past.

im contemplating whether to start a new blog.. hmmm...
one tt only I can access hahahz.

wat a surprise...

ma9-10th March

IT Show @ suntec. Not very bz leh. But it's fun working again! yippeee. saw my telechoice's "fan shu ge ge" IVan.. heez. n i get to slack too hahahhaz. alot of new faces but still alrite lah. heez

11th March

yanting's 21st bday advance celebration @ her hse. rch early to help out. heez. had fun suaning Mr loh..whahahhaz. had a pleasant surprise.. thanks char bo! hahahahz. gave me such a shock.. really..But i still tink is becos someone feeling guilty abt something so become so nice today one ar. trying to "mi bu guo cuo" izzit. hahahz.A pleasant surprise nonetheless though im no longer gg to be so affected. im not dumb my fren..hmm oh well... Anway, Hope yt like her prezzie heez. Happy advance bday my dearest ting! hahahz.

Boo.. time will heal... fate will decide the future. i noe u have ur limits on drinking and u r always the sensible one so i dun have to worry for u. Take gd care my dear fren. Hugz.

i miss...

i miss them both.. boo n him.

i miss having someone caring for me. acting as my security pillar. treating me as his princess.

i miss having someone to tok to in the middle of nite for hrs abt everything n nuttin.. and playing songs tt i like in his ipod.

feeling emo again. one day i will delete all these entries. or simply laugh aft reading. one day.

i find myself irritating...

U might be surprised.. Yes all of u reading tis post ur eyes r perfectly fine.. I DO FIND MYSELF IRRITATING.. u r polite( or lying) if u tell me "no..u r not..." Cos doing numerous reflection abt myself, my actions and my behaviour.. tis is the FINAL Conclusion i get. I really do mean wat i say. is like. I have been whining, and whining.. complaining and complaining... toking abt the same old thing.. between me n boo n someone.. for like weeks.. for some who knew the story maybe mths.. N it is all the same story!!!! n i repeated it day in day out.. same old thing.. maybe alittle update everyday depending on wat actually happened. but tat's all abt it. I Dun understand myself too. Y am i becoming like tis. Even cindy say all my entries are the same practically. upset, anger..happy. more upset.. more anger.. more happy.. duh. "wat the hell...??!!" I wondered how many of u tolerated me.... hahhaz

Thank u Yanting for all phone calls at nite, Rick, kevin, lionel n cindy who listen to my whining.. n yingda n yiwen too sometimes.. hahahz. Im so diff fr all their frens n they can tolerate me.. Im not like Iris..not like Connie, not like grace, gloria.. , not like B10... not like sharon, xiao yan, not like michelle, cheryl... Im ME.. so diff fr the rest. so "extreme".. guess u either love me or hate me ba. BUt still *bow* thk u so much! hahahz i very "pei fu" u all lor. can "tahan" me for so long. And oso boo! he tolerated all my nonsense.. for 2 yrs wif love n care. thks my dear fren!

I want to *slap* myself.. Cant i juz get over it???? Looking for answers when its already placed right infront of me. Regreting things tat i had done n feeling guilty for my other actions.. gosh.. what had i become?? SO bothered abt so many things. damn. Wake me up. slap me if u want. im tired of it. i noe its gg to end. 1 more day to be exact. Bye bye dear fren. im expecting wat's gg to happen next. im walking, walking out of ur life. I hate u! i noe i do! bleahx. N i noe u r not gg to read tis. putting it to an end. period. full stop. irritated. upset. making me guilty over boo. out of my life. hurt. damn shoo. go away even if i dun wan u to. stop making me to start hating myself too. im beginning to find myself irritating already. damn u! Grrrrr.....

I juz finished my HMT assignment!!

Yeah!! i finally finished typing my HMT assignment. duh.. Have been working on it for a wk ,maybe? hmmm..happy happy.. these few days. Im working for coming IT show tis wk.. thank goodness!! or else im like damn broke lor. And i cut my hair today!! juz got the urge to cut my hair cos i really cant stand it anymore. The hair as messy as the owner.. duh...

Act nuttin much to blog.,.. waiting for a long awaited phone call.. duh..

*pls do not spoil my mood..-to the person who is gg to call. duh*

im so long winded...

I read my past entries.. like i said..im so long winded., i seriously dunno who will like to read my blog at all.. i guess no one will (like i mean.). n sometimes i wonder who act reads them. Hmm.. like does boo read them aft the break up? hmmm if he did. i juz wanna say.. take care my dear fren...I have nv act the role of a gd gf to u... *sigh* sorry!
oh watever.. i super long winded lor for all my entries. ppl might juz perceive me as some lonely fellow who got nuttin better to do but blog abt her little miserable life.( well, quite true..duh.. ;)

Anyway, saw 2 shuai ge when i went national library tis aftnoon.wahhahz beside finding references for my assignment tis is the BIG bonus. whahahz. eye candy. Went gai gai wif yt at bugis village for awhile before heading for home.

My life is boring... duh... miserably so.. i wonder if i get to work during IT show. if not.. i tink i outcast by alex liao. oh man.

Cont wif my HMT ...hurr.. a boring subject making me even more a boring person. gosh.

Wat is the definition of Okay?

A: How r u? R u ok? (ni ok ma?)

B: Hmm.. ok ar...Like that lor..(hai hao lor) What makes u think that im not ok?

A: No lah...Juz asking... hmm..Tat's gd. (na jiu hao)

B: ya.. busy wif projs recently lor...

PS: tis conv is in a mixture of chi n eng. hahahz

So wat's the definition of okay or not okay? Since most ppl have been asking me tis qns recently( like the above scenerio).. Guess im okay cos i can still lauf abt jokes and be as crazy as i used to be.. im not so upset that im a walking zombie.. But there r still times when im upset and when loneliness creeps in unknowingly... the feeling is undescribable. duh.

Ok got to run... meeting uni mates to go to the National Lib..

LOnely Saturday

All alone at home the whole day trying very hard to do my HMT assignment. Damn wat happened to my sat??? *hp rings* =kevin called= Yeah! Dinner out! Someone who saved me from boredom and give me a reason to leave the hse. hahhahz. Went sakae sushi wif kor..yummy yummy cos im like hungry?? hahahaz. Saw twinnie, jerm n his bro too n got into tis crazy frenzy as usual.. toking so fast n hugging ppl. i hope jerm's bro din get too stunned. whahahhaz. dun care lah hor. whahahz. jerm's used to it by now anyway. So glad to meet kevin up man... long time since i laz saw him. Wif wat's happening recently its even more heartwarming to meet him up! Well, kevin is so gd cos he doesnt chastise me on the things i do. No matter its right or wrong. Becos he knew.. the very reason why we do certain things.. hahahz he noes me so damn well lah. So comforting to have him who juz simply understand man. Hugs to kevin!!

Supposed to meet a fren for supper @ jalan kayu for prata but he happens to have other plans so meet up wif my twinnie again. whahahz my "part-time" bf i calls him. But he says he got higher standard. damn. i tt bad meh. diao. wahhahaz. ok Fine.. twin is twin.period. 2 lonely souls walking ard orchard to find a cafe to chill but everywhere is crowded wif ppl.. duh. So these 2 lonely souls headed home instead when the night is still young. Man.. im a gd gal.. went home to do my assignment BUT... im so sleepy now n im left wif i tink 4 chpts not summarise yet. Tml still gotta go national library to look for references materials. Damn.. yes yes.. i shld have started earlier i noe.. WED is the due date. sobz..sobz.. Save Me!

I cant take it anymore. Shall cont doing HMT tml.. im falling aslp. Nitez.

Happy shopping day!

I finally completed my ER assignment but i made mistakes!! Editing and amending it in sch tis morn.duh.. IM like so Flustered today... rushing here n there to the computer lab.. feeling so gan chiong.. like" y did i miss out tt model???" when yt keeps reminding me? hai. heck care already since i already submitted it. I hate tis 'laz min" feeling.. Grrr.. i juz hope i dun fail tis assignment. hai.. dislike tis "gan chiong" flustered feeling.. i was calling hmm quite a number of ppl "complaining/ whining" abt it.. wahhahz sorry peeps. heez..

Went shopping wif yanting n val in the aftnoon.. im so glad.. my 2 besties "click"..hahaz I got "shou huo" today. heez. Bought a very "me" skirt.. its PINK.. wif LACY FrILLS below!! ANd a MickEy MouSe watch wif yt. wahhahz i noe all of u are shaking ur heads liao. hahahz yuppy. I am SOOOoooo In LOVE with MICKEY MOUSE!!! muacks!! ADDICTIVED to it.. i want to collect all mickey thingy. currently, i have hmm 3 tees, 1 pair of earrings, 1 bracelet, 1 watch. ( all not REAL one whahahz. cute can le.) I can tell u the number of items will increase thru time man. ahhahz..


i realised i cant stand boredom and lonliness... n i got SHORt TERM MeMoRy!! (cant rem muz stuffs i said. hahahz blur as ever.) i realised i keep blogging.. maybe it gives me something to do.. some channel/ outlet to express myself. But den hor my mouth so "big" everyone noes abt everything anyway. duh. But there r still times there r stuffs i juz have to write it in a more subtle manner here. Hmm oh well.. hmmm..

Im sorry im so selfish at times.. i noe i shld give boo more time.. frens .. gd frens... tat's wat i want us to be. so many things.. unexplainable in writing or words. take care boo. thks for loving me so much.

* i dun believe in prolonged depression or sadness.... Life still goes on.. There r still ppl who love me ard.. my "chou chou-bao bao" still "stinks" . .....wahhahz I LOVE "ME". self appreciation is a booster!!*

Im StRonGeR than YsT! ( i hope)

Im still doing ER assignment!!! oh my god.. my pts are all jumble up i hope i dun get out of pt.bleahx.. its due tml!! Pts Pts Pts.. i still have so many pts dunno where i shld put it under. sobz. Anyway, i have assignments to put my mind busy these few days. Feeling better already wahhahaz though i still misses both of them.i gotta keep sadness in the bottom of my heart....But oh well.. IM JIAN NING!! how can i be not cheery.. duh.. Sadness cant change to gold.. someone told me tt before.. cant help missing him.. sometimes i wonder do i hate him for doing all these. i noe is for my own gd.. but still. grrrrr.. i wonder at times if i nv meet him in my life. will my life be better? gosh.. i miss him. i hate him. i gotta pick myself up aft a few falls, bruises n scars to be seen as evidences.Does he see the bruises n scars? n how abt the bruises n scars i inflict on boo.. IM stronger than yst!!! (i hope..)

ok back to doing ER.. bleahx.